can't shut my heart up

reality

Barbie POV

              Ugh its filthy back here...smells like trash probably because we're near the trash...they...they aren't fucking with me are they?...ugh i know i'ma bitch and all but...well no one else is here i guess

B: hey...hey come on now your real ...a real pain in the ass

               She...they...they start crying more. I really should try getting better with pronouns...i'll admit that wasn't cool. I kneel down in front of them on the dirty ground

B: sorry sorry...but hey if uh you weren't real could you feel this? 

                 I put my hands on their shoulders. They look up

D: i...i n-no

B: yeah you wouldn't and...name 5 things ya see for me okay? 

D: i...u-uh...t-trash, a d-door...stars?...you a-and...the ground?

B: yep that's five...good

                     They start to calm down a lil bit but don't get up...it's mainly awkward silence. I do wonder...if they were just spiting bull shit or...

B: hey that thing you were talking about with the waiting zone...what did you mean? 

D: i...i don't wanna talk about i forget i said that shit okay-

B: NO!...look i'll never bring up the thing about...that day in er but...this is different i can't fuck around with you if ya get like this so tell me what the hell it is would ya?

D: *sigh* i...all of you were lucky...you just had to wait however time from your video being made to when it gets released...me though...i was "made" when the book was starting to just be put together...i had to wait like two fucking years...and i didn't even have a look or body yet...people'd come into the waiting zone but...didn't see me...i wasn't real yet...they'd come and go and yanno two years alone gives ya time...to think...i figured myself out by them cus i was...nothing i didn't have body features to tell me what or who i was and...then when i finally got a body and was able to leave...i...i still was alone...luckily i had the cats but...still...i was alone...i wasn't even real for about two years...that's why...i don't do good with people i'm sorry i watched yall come in and out of the waiting zone with friends or family...and i had no one...i h-have no one

                 That...generally sounds awful...i kinda feel bad

B: ...so you...you saw me right? 

D: i saw like...everyone but yeah, yeah i saw ya

B: was i just as pretty?

D: *scoff* you kidding?...you were perfect

~~~flashback~~~

?: THAT'S A WRAP

D: *sigh* that...means another one's coming

                    I hear a bing and a pink haired...messy hair by the way...girl pops up...she looks like she slept on her look to be honest. She has a pretty cool tooth gem on her

G: w-where am i? woahhhh dude am i like...dead...wait that can't be right i was never alive...i though people were like born as babys...and couldn't talk...i'm for sure no baby though...hey heyyyyy i look kinda dope

                   Well she's full of herself. Another bing happens and this girl pops up...shes gorgeous holy damn...she kinda looks like a barbie doll but like...hotter...way hotter. I hear two other bings but can't seem to focus on them...but i notice they must be sisters since they all came from the same music video and all have tooth gems...but i think her's shines the brightest at just the right angle...shes so pretty my God-

~~~end of flashback~~~

D: b-but uh...anyways uh 

                     I get up and dust my pants off

B: ...i uh...sorry you went thru all that

D: thanks i guess...uh i should um go get drunk or something

                      I notice shes staring at me in...not a totally bitchy way

B: hey look don't tell no one but uh...drinks on me okay?...i just kinda feel like a bitch is all

D: you are a bitch but...sure