We're more alike than you think

8. The Winter Soldier

"You're sure about this?" you whispered close to the soldier's lips. The soldier gave you a nod. "It's easier when you're around" he said short but precisely. A little smile curled up on your lips "Then I will be there" you said and let your lips brush against his lips. You tilted your head, curious for what the soldier wanted to do next. His hands gently moving up and down your naked body. "What do you wanna do now, soldier?" you asked.  He answered your question with putting both of your hands above your head before he leaned down kissing you.

You could feel his cold metal hand holding you down on the mattress. It made you smile. The vibrations from the metal made you feel things. It was a mix between power and lust. Knowing you had the power to do whatever you wanted to do, and a lust for more. The Soldier knew this about you. You were one of very few people who didn't get scared of him. You wanted him for who he exactly was. Cold, determined and lonely. His arm, his metal arm was not a weapon or a burden for you, it was something you craved. It made him perfect for you, but he wasn't only perfect for you. You were perfect for him. You were calculated, smart and always had an understanding of what needed to be done. Many could describe you as cold, but the soldier had seen kindness in you. You were only very selective about who deserved it.

"We should go, we don't want to make Pierce wait" you whispered into the soldier's ear. He got the message and the two of you got dressed. Unlike the soldier, you stood free to choose what missions you wanted to take, that often being the one that paid best and Hydra was often the best paid operator. Did you support their cause? Absolutely not, but it sent a strong signal to your father and you liked the money.

It was your first time going in with the Winter Soldier to Pierce and you were already prepared for his snarky comments. They had tried many times to wipe his memory of you without succeeding and since you didn't really stand in their way, they had now given up on that part. You still enjoyed to see the annoyance in Pierce's face.

They would wipe him after every mission to make sure that he had no memories of the different people he would encounter on missions. Mostly to make sure he couldn't connect the dots. Every now and then they would freeze him down, it could be for a couple of months or just days, then they would let their little toy out again.

Those were the worst times. You had no idea of how long they would keep him frozen. It made you crazy not knowing, and it made you doubt your intentions with the soldier. From time to time you thought about the idea of breaking him out of the Hydra facilities, but you knew better than to mess with them and you let go of the thought.

"It's not too late for you to turn around Y/n." Pierce said as the Winter Soldier sat down in the chair. You smiled at Pierce. It must be funny for him to know that even if you had the power to kill him on the spot you couldn't. The man himself was a top agent with combat skills, but it was nothing against what you could do. You looked over to one of the doctors who were holding a scissors before you altered the magnetic field and snapped it out of his hands. You had no intention of hurting anyone, but you wanted to remind them of who really was in power. You played with it while looking up at Pierce. "He wanted me here."

"Your choice, don't say I didn't warn you" he said and turned around to look at the soldier.

"Y/n stays." the soldier stated while looking at you.

You smiled weakly at Pierce who clearly didn't like having visitors over. He looked annoyed at the scissor you were playing with before he caught it in his hands and put it back on the table. You tilted your head with an innocent smile at him before he turned back to the soldier.

"Fine. Wipe him"

They pushed the soldier back in the chair and cuffed him into the seat. You wanted to be here for him, but you didn't like it. Watching your only friend get tortured and brainwashed was something not even you could enjoy, but you knew that the soldier wanted you here so you stayed.

 
The soldier started to breath heavily as the machine was getting attached to his face. You wanted to look away or even help the soldier out, but you knew Pierce would judge you for it, so you looked straight at the soldier. The machine started and the soldier let out a scream that hit you right to the core. Without even thinking you altered the magnetic field and moved everyone into the wall, so they stood as far as possible from the Soldier. You walked straight over to the soldier.

"Don't do anything stupid" Pierce yelled at you while the soldier was still screaming in pain. You looked over at Pierce with a smile before you took the Soldier's hand and just held it. You wanted to let the Soldier know you stood right beside him. Some of the guards tried to point their gun at you, but you just laughed and slammed their simple guns to the ground as they broke.

The machine stopped and you looked back at the soldier who was breathing heavily. You leaned down to his face and took out the gum they had put in there. You put a finger on his under lip and watched as it moved with his heavy breathing. You smiled when you saw that he was claiming down. You leaned closer to his face and kissed him.

"Y/n stays." you whispered.