"Hidup di belakang topeng dan menari di atas panggung." Kiasan yang cocok untuk Estella Beatrice dan Mischa Arananda di saat kehidupan sempurna mereka terbantah dengan preferensi menyimpang yang mereka lakukan untuk melampiaskan beban kehidupan.
Karena ini hari terakhir kita di Paris, jadi gak banyak yang kita kunjungi hari ini. Maksimal check out jam 12 siang dan jadwal pesawat kita jam 3 sore. Kita harus gerak cepat hari ini. Gue membawakan sarapan untuk gue dan Elzano ke kamar sembari tunggu dia bangun. Kita makan bersama di ruang tamu kamar hotel.
"How do you feel about last night, Estella?"
"Good. I'm feeling good."
"I'm sorry if I did some mistakes and made you uncomfortable. I still need to ensure myself about the preferences. But one thing I'm sure is I adore you! I need your presence in my life! And I want to be your turning point! I want to always beside you when you need something!" That's cute tho.
"Thanks, Elzano. I tried to understand this all."
"Take your time," "anyway, after this, do you go back to Finland or Swiss?"
"I think I will go to Swiss just two or three days because our tickets plane is going to Swiss haha. But my grandparents will take me back to Finland."
"Why don't you stay in Switzerland? We will have more time together!"
"I'm afraid of bothering my aunty if I stay there all the time."
"Or you can stay on my apartment? Move in with me, probably?" WOW! I'M NOT READY FOR IT! I get shocked! My eyes open wide, "sorry if that's too soon!! Never mind!" Seems like he can read my expression haha.
"We can process it slowly, Elzano. Can I tell my aunty about these all?"
"Yes. Your rights."
"Thanks!"
"I will go to Finland if I have a free time to meet you. Keep contact!"
"That's fine. We'll be okay. Focus on your study."
"I want you to focus on your study too, Estella. Even tho you have to go back to Indonesia. I'll support you! Full support!" Awwwwhhhh! I want to continue my study! I just don't know where to start?
Selesai rapih-rapih, kita ketemuan di lobby hotel dan bertemu sama Aunty Camilli sambil bawa semua barang-barang kita. Kita akan makan siang di bandara nanti. Sepanjang jalan, kita ngomongin tentang LDR Finland-Switzerland haha. Makin yakin lah Aunty Camilli sama hubungan kita berdua ini. Padahal gue sendiri belum mengiyakan, cuma mau jalanin aja.
Gak banyak yang kita lakuin selama di bandara sampe kita tiba di Swiss. Gue, aunty, sama uncle anterin Elzano ke apartnya dulu.
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"You want to move in here, Estella?" teased Aunty Camilli while poking my shoulder.
"Ah? You kidding me! Haha. Nanti diomelin grandma grandpa haha."
"Don't worry! I'll take care of it!"
Elzano senyum ke gue seakan kasih kode gue harus setuju sama ide Aunty Camilli. Awalnya gue tergoda sih buat coba move in dan yah ... kali aja emang ini jalannya gue buat move on. Tapi ketika tue melihat sekitar lagi, ada beberapa photo frame Elzano sama satu cowok yang cukup banyak di sini. Gue jadi inget kalo gue bisa aja masih menjadi 'percobaan' dia yang masih questioning sexual preference-nya. Enggak dulu deh. Yang ada malah bikin gue makin sakit nanti.
