"I'm sorry." He tidies up his clothes and zipping back his pants. We're fully clothed but the mess can't lie.
He said sorry instead of mad at me. Why did he say sorry?
"You're not supposed to be sorry. I am sorry."
"I'm sorry not for our first sex, but I'm sorry to see your huge anger and disappointment on your father that led you decided to do this." IT HITS ME HARD!
"But your virginity has lost too." I look at the blood tinted bedsheet, so does he.
"I have expected this to happen. We just wait for that time to come."
"Hmm." I exhale a deep breath while wandering around. Just find that I am recording this video! Oh my God!
"Aranda! Can you stop the record, please? I record our first sex tape to know your reaction earlier haha." I point the phone at the same place with Arananda, in front of the bed.
"Oh my God! Is that my phone?" He gets down from the bed and walking to the phone, stopping the record.
"That's your second phone, right?"
"Luckily yes haha."
"I can't imagine if that was your main phone."
"We can monetize it from Only Fans then."
"HAHAHAHA— AWWW!!" I FELT HURT WHEN I LAUGHED OUT LOUD, SHIT!
"WHOA! Are you okayyy???" Aranda goes back to the bed and keeping an eye for me.
"That's okay. Just a bit hurt."
"Is that hurt really bad?"
"I think that's not supposed to be hurt, but we're not ready yet for that. So it's hurt. Also, you have a massive lightsaber. Of course it hurts me."
"HAHAHAH! Sorry for that~" He's very proud of it.
"Can you fill the bathtub for me, then clean up all of these mess?"
"Yes, master. Give it to me." He does my order to open the tap, taking off the bedsheets, and arranging back the stuffs in our room, while I am sitting on the sofa and waiting the bathtub to be filled.
I'm relieved cause he's not mad at me, instead he's proud of it hahah. I still don't think that this is the right path, but I don't care anymore. I see many notifications from papi, but I ignore it. Fuck your life like you fuck your own sister-in-law! Awalnya menolak dijodohin, ujung-ujungnya lo hamilin juga. TOLOL!
"The bathtub has filled up, Beatrice," informed him from inside the bathroom.
"Alright. I'll go there. Wait a minute." I walk very slowly cause it's still hurt. Aaaahh! Arananda, you have to responsible for this!
When I go inside the bathroom, there are many rose petals on the bathtub. Oh my God!
"Did we just get married and do a honeymoon?"
"Accidentally, it's our first night."
"It's not even night yet haha."
"That's okay! Happy relaxing! I will continue to clean the room, then go to the receptionist to extend the rent." When he wants to go outside, I grab his hand and pulling back closer to mine.
"We started it together, we finished it together." I look deeply into his eyes and ensuring him to stay with me.
"My body is dirty."
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Crush with Benefits
Romansa"Hidup di belakang topeng dan menari di atas panggung." Kiasan yang cocok untuk Estella Beatrice dan Mischa Arananda di saat kehidupan sempurna mereka terbantah dengan preferensi menyimpang yang mereka lakukan untuk melampiaskan beban kehidupan.
