After the ball rang to go to second period, I knew what my choice was. I pulled Gio aside on the hallway to talk to him.
Leila: Gio I cant do it.
G: Leila What are you talking about?
Leila: I can't break up with him.
G: why not?
Leila: I don't know I just can't. I'm telling alex that we kissed though.
G: Yo, you kissed me.
Leila: yes Gio I know.
G: what if Alex breaks up with you?
Leila: than that sucks doesn't it?
I walked upstairs to my next class. I barely made it before the bell. Alex was already in the classroom. I walked over and sat next to him.
A: hey
Leila: you gonna ride home with me?
A: do you want me to
Leila: it's up to you
A: yeah I'm gonna ride home with you. Are we riding with Gio again?
Leila: no we're gonna have to ride the bus.
A: ok sounds good baby.
Leila: ok.
After the last bell of the day rung I walked over to Alex's locker. He took my hand and we walked outside. We got on the bus and sat in the seat that we always sit in.
A: so what did you want to talk to me about?
Leila: do you really want to talk about it?
A: yeah I do.
Leila: well lasts night Gio and I kissed when I went to talk to him.
A: and that is what took you so long?
Leila: your not mad?
A: no I'm furious.
Leila: Alex...
A: I can't believe this is happening. We were so good.
Leila: I know. I'm sorry.
A: Leila... I don't...
I started to cry a little. It hurt me that this was happening.
A: awh baby don't cry.
Alex pulled me into him.
Leila: Alex I'm so sorry. It sorta just happened. Now I'm so mad at myself and I can't believe I did that. It was such a big mistake. I'm so sorry.
A: hey I know. We'll talk about this later ok? Calm down Leila. It's ok.
Leila: were ok?
A: yeah for now. We will talk about this later. Ok?
Leila: ok.
The bus dropped Alex and I off at my house. We walked inside. Alex sat me on the sectional and sat across from me.
A: ok let's talk about this.
Leila: what's this?
A: us.
Leila: oh my god, are you gonna break up with me?
A: no. Leila no, but do you have feelings for
Gio?
Leila: no. Well I don't know Alex.
A: explain it to me leils.
Leila: well I feel something. I don't think I actually have feelings for him, it was just that stupid message.
A: so you don't have actual feelings for him?
Leila; no. I don't.
A: thank god, Leila you scared me.
Leila: awh I did?
A: yes. I thought you had feelings for someone else. I thought you were going to break up with me.
Leila: well I didn't
A: thank god.
Alex walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me.
A: I love you.
Leila: I love you too.
A: never scare me like that again.
Leila: I scared myself too.
A: what do you mean.
Leila: I thought that I was going to lose you.
A: you'll never lose me Leila.
Leila: good.
I tucked my head into Alex's chest. We sat back down on the couch and started talking again.
A: did Gio want us to split?
Leila: yeah.
A: would you have gotten with him if we split?
Leila: yeah I probably would have, but I wouldn't be happy without you.
A: I wouldn't be happy without you either.
Leila: your barely ever home. I feel like you're always with me.
A: that's true.
Leila: why do you spend all of your time with me?
A: I feel like the more time we spend together the less you think about other guys, if that makes sense.
Leila: what do you mean?
A: the more time we spend together, the less time you have to think about someone else. You have to admit that you think about other guys.
Leila: well yeah I do. They are my friends Alex. That is what separates them and you. Your my boyfriend, their my guy friends. I love all of you, but your love and their love is different. That is what separates them and you. I want to spend my life with you.
A: I am going to spend my life with you.
Leila: I love you more everyday.
A: I've never loved anything as much as I love you
