Don't Let Go (Sasha Banks x Dean Ambrose)

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"Today is going to be emotional and rough. So, guys when you watch this, if you hate hearing or seeing people cry then just skip ahead." Payton laughed a bit. Now that she was home from SummerSlam, she would be filming about the tragic loss of Dustin, as well as her journey of raising her son. She and the producer would be filming at Dustin's grave, which Payton knew would be very emotional and hard for her. It always was whenever she visited his grave. Payton and the producer, Brennan, then got out of the car, walking up to where Dustin was laid to rest at.

"So, people may be wondering why exactly we're at a graveyard, but this is the hardest thing I will discuss on this documentary or whatever you wanna call it. This, is where my son's father is laid at." Payton said, taking a deep breath.

"Can you take us through what you went through with your son's father?" Brennan asked.

"It'll be six years ago on November Thirtieth that I lost Dustin. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to face. But, it was about eleven at night on the Thirtieth and that was the last text I ever received from Dustin. He was at one of his friends' house playing video games and I was at my house, just relaxing since I had spent most of the day with Jackson, Genna, and little Isabella who wasn't even one at the time. I texted him and I said, 'I can't wait to have brunch with you tomorrow, I love you so much.' And then he responded just about five minutes later and said, 'I can't wait to see your beautiful face either baby, I love you so much too.' And I had these messages transferred every time I changed my phone because it gives me a bit of reassurance and a small security blanket. But, after that text I went to bed. An hour later," Payton started, but began crying and took a deep breath to try to calm down.

"An hour later, at midnight, I got a call from Dustin's dad, Ryan. He told me that Dustin was in a very bad car crash with a drunk driver on his way home from playing video games and that he may not make it through the night." She continued but broke down in tears again.

"I-I'm sorry I need a minute." She said with a slight stutter as Brennan stopped filming until she was ready.

"Take your time." He softly said as she thanked him, catching her breath and trying to calm down. After about ten minutes of taking deep breaths, Payton finally calmed down enough to where she was okay to continue filming.

"Ryan told me that Dustin may not make it through the night. I immediately got out of my bed, threw on my shoes and began screaming and crying to my mom and dad to wake them up and take me to the hospital. They were shocked as well because this was so weird, it was so sudden, it was so out of the blue. They were like, 'Dustin? Seriously, Dustin?' They were in total shock and could barely mouth any words while I just sat in the back, crying and praying I could see him or hope that somehow he'd make it and pull through. When we got to the hospital, I was running and pushing through people, just screaming for Dustin so I could see him, and then I was stopped by Ryan." She said, wiping away more tears that fell down her rose tinted cheeks.

"Ryan stopped me and told me that Dustin had passed away, five minutes prior. And god that killed me. When Dustin died, a part of me did too. He was my first real love, we were together for a year and a half. We had plans that we would get into NXT and WWE together. We were going to get married and at around the time we were twenty five, then have kids if we wanted to or if we wanted to wait another year or two. And all that got ripped away from me." Payton stated.

"When Ryan told me that Dustin was gone, I wouldn't believe me. I kept saying, 'No he's here he's waiting for me let me see him. Just let me see him.' And I couldn't. I screamed and cried in my dad's chest. Also, that was so heartbreaking for me, because that same morning before the wreck even happened, I took some pregnancy tests and found out I was pregnant with our son. I remember my mom comforting me and then I just blurted it out that I was pregnant. My mom and dad, as well as Ryan, they were all shocked but they supported me nonetheless because I was all this baby has." She continued, sniffling back some tears that kept running down her face.

"I had to be strong for our son. And thank god for my family and Ryan. They gave me all the love and support, I didn't imagine how much love and support they'd give me. They came to Dustin's memorial, but I just wanted my mom and dad with me at his funeral. I didn't want my siblings and my two nieces to see their sister and their Aunt Payton to cry and be so sad, because that was the worst I've ever felt. But, I kept going for our son, who's now five and is named after his dad." She said with a small smile.

"How do you think things would be different if Dustin was still here?" Brennan asked as they walked on a trail since other people were walking close, not exactly where Payton was standing, but in the shot of her filming and didn't want to bother them.

"Things would be so much different if Dustin were to still be here. First, Dustin would actually have a physical and emotional relationship with his dad. I couldn't say if Dustin and I would still be dating. I would like to hope so, but don't get me wrong. I love Alec. I'm so happy I have him and that Dustin has him as a father figure. But, obviously I would've loved to stay with Dustin for our son and if we were to have anymore babies. Dustin would be living his dreams as being a dad and a wrestler. Sometimes I do think about how things would be different if Dustin was still here, but then it makes me so upset that doesn't have that physical relationship with his dad and human interaction with his dad, but that makes me so much more grateful for Alec. I don't know where I'd be without him." Payton smiled before they got back into her car.

"Now, I get to go spend the rest of the afternoon by picking up my sweet boy from school, and hanging out with both of my boys at home." She smiled before they finished filming for that day. Payton then dropped off Brennan at his hotel that he had to stay at before then going to get Dustin from school, spending the evening with her fiancé and son after a very rough, emotional day.