His Goddaughter,His Darling

Selfish

Days to Yule Ball came fast.I went to my classes in the morning.Draco was looking at me at every chance he got and I was doing the same.After dinner I was making my hair.I sent Arsenio to Draco so he would bring me what he got.I was waiting in my room.On my bed.With my bath robe.My make up onto hair made.Finally Draco had the opportunity to bring me my dress.I opened the door."Goyle?""Draco is dressing up.He said he forgot to give it to you earlier.So here it is."He handed shopping bags.I grabbed his arm before he walked away."Why do you hate me?"He turned to me."I don't hate you.I just don't like you.No one does."I chuckled."I don't blame you.I'm not the most likable person you've probably met.But just so you know.I don't hate you.In fact from the very first time I stepped onto that train I never hated any of you.Acting like I did helped me to see who I should trust and keep by my side and who not to.And I might not hate you.But I don't trust you."He rolled his eyes not knowing who the fuck I am.

I was in awe of the dress.The shoes.The ring was breathtaking.Bracelet was the same and the necklace was just...amazing.I changed faster than I ever did.Then Arsenio came back with a note on his arm.Draco said he was waiting for me in the common room when I was ready.And I was ready.I got out and the whole common room was empty.Except the armchair Draco sits all the time."It would be great if you could look around.Maybe you'll see me."Before he turned his head around he spoke up."You are all I see.Maybe I wanted to surprise myself."Then he turned his head to me.I smiled widely."What do you think?"I spun around and when I stopped Draco was standing right in front of me."Tonight is going to be a long night.Trying to act like we're just 'friends' and all."I smiled wider as I giggled."It won't be that bad.But I have found a way to repay you for the outfit.""You don't have to repay me darling.I did it because I wanted to."I kissed his cheek."I know that.I am also doing this because I want to but also because I haven't done it in a very long time."

     "What are you gonna do?""If I tell you now...would it be a surprise later?"He shook his head.After we kissed we left the common room."I should get it out of my chest before we get to the Great Hall."I turned to him as I was holding his hand."What is it?""You look breathtaking as always.I also want to brag about how I got the dress exactly your size.Shoes are the same.Green is absolutely your color.So is black but we all know that.I also  want to brag about how I got your ring size right.Because it was hard.Really.I had to sneak into your room when you weren't there.Take your clothes and jewlery.Size them up and eventually put them back.It wasn't easy,darling.I'm telling you."I scoffed."You broke into my room?"He nodded with a smile but I wasn't smiling.I stopped walking."Let's go we're gonna be late."I scoffed and stepped in front of him."Draco I don't think you understand the risk I am taking by loving you.I am risking your life for my own happiness can't you see that?If I date you and people learn?You're as good as dead.If I don't date you?Then I'm not happy.I'm alone.I'm miserable.Nothing.If you broke into my room and what if someone that was waiting for me-it could be my mom,Snape,anyone-and they saw you...they would either harm you or kill you."

       "I get that Snape was the reason you wanted to hide it because he is your father but don't you think you're being a little extreme?"I shook my head."I think you're underestimating the situation Draco.If I was being even a little bit extreme then I wouldn't be going to this ball with you in the first place.But as I told you,I'm selfish.That's why right now I am going to the ball with you.If I wasn't this selfish then you would be going with someone else.Someone I knew you would stay away from me.Please don't take this lightly Draco.I don't want to lose you.I don't even want to think about losing you."He saw the fear in my eyes.The terrified look that I gave him.Because I am terrified of what they are capable of.Draco's death won't end with just Draco.Of Lucius loves his son just a teeny weeny bit he will raise his voice and it'll be the end of the long coming Malfoy family.

      A tear ran down on his face."There are eyes literally everywhere.Merlin knows how many people have heard us now.Please don't cry.Because I am doing everything in my power to not lose you.I am pushing every limit I have.Just to be happy with you."He kissed my forehead."I want to be happy with you as long as I could.You're going to leave me eventually.I want to enjoy the time we have."I stepped away."What do you mean by 'leave me eventually' Draco?"He sighed."It's nothing.Let's go."He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and I did the same around his waist because that's where I could reach."You look amazing,krasiv."I turned to Draco and back to Krum."Thank you.I was wondering...did you ask Hermione?"He sighed."I did.Luckily she said yes."I smiled well at least you have a date.""I would rather go with you,krasiv."I could feel Draco's grip getting tighter around my shoulders."Here.This is my address.Write to me."I took the parchment."I will.""Maybe we could at least be friends."I smiled and nodded as we left.

      "You're not gonna write him right?""There is a thing called connections,ferret.If you keep in touch and make a connection with someone then when you need help or something bad happens you can always reach out to them.Since you are so certaint hat I'll leave you maybe he will help me with the heart break."He scoffed."I take back every word.You are never leaving me.Ever."I smiled.As we went down the stairs I saw Cedric with Cho.He was waving at me.I winked at him.Then Potter came up to us."Ula.Malfoy.""It's Lopez for you,Potter.Only her friends are allowed to call her by her name."I sighed."What is it Harry?"He leaned to my ear and whispered."I don't know if it's just me but...I think Professor Moody is watching you."My eyes widened and I was speechless.He backed away."Thank you Harry but I think it's just you.""Well...at least you know."Then McGonagall showed up and took the champions in for the first dance.