His Goddaughter,His Darling

I Wish It Was

          I know I made her feel something when our eyes met.I know it.When she left I wanted to talk to her.I went after her.Heard her.But I couldn't quiet figure out what she said from the distance.As she stood there in the cold breeze with barely something on her.Just a long sleeved shirt."Cat got your tongue?"She stood still as she answered me the way she did.I stood right behind her.Feeling her bare skin under my hand...Warmth of her skin made me dizzy.She had hair up so took the pen out of her hair and let her hair fall over her body."What are you doing to me,Malfoy?"I liked the way my family name sounded from her mouth."I like you darling.Is it that hard to see?"She stayed silent before she answered."I don't want to see it."She doesn't want to see it?Why?It just confused me."Why?Why do you not want to see it?I know I didn't act like it but it was neve-"She cut me off."It's not you.It's...him."The way she said it made it obvious that there was someone else.I mean what was I thinking?!She has all these people around her that would want to go out with her.I might be their savior but I wanted her to be mine."Crabbe?Or is it that Akulov bloke that came from Durmstrang?"She scoffed.A little pause."No.It's not."

          I leaned down to her neck.I kissed her neck and it tasted so good.As her hand came in contact with my cheek I froze."If this is going to happen..."Her voice was breaking down."No one could know.And I mean no one."We both stayed silent.Knowing she is mine was enough for me right now.She is not telling me something.Or else why would she want to hide it?She isn't afraid of Pansy we saw that much.What could it possibly?But she can answer that later."Deal."Then I turned her around and kissed her and it was even better than what I imagined.Better in every way.Her full lips were mine to consume.She liked this as much as I did.Then she let go of me."What is it?"I wanted to ask if I did something wrong but she kept staring outside."It's Arsenio."Then she yelled."Arsenio!"An owl came.She sent it away after she got the letter.She tore the stamp apart before I could take a look."What is it that so important with this letter?""Because the letter I sent was a call of help."She read it.More than one time I think.

         "What does it say?"She explained and when I asked her that she could spend it with me she refused and left.I was hurt.I didn't mean any harm.I just wanted to spend the holiday with her.There was nothing wrong with that.As I came back to the dungeons I reached for my dorm's key.And I got the pen she ties her hair up with.She has been using this ever since she came here.Every day.So I went to knock on her door to give it back.I heard voices coming from the inside.It was...It's not possible.She can speak parseltongue.B-B-But how?I knocked on her door and went inside.She turned to me from the picture frame she was staring at."I'm sorry if I was a bit harsh.I would...love to spend the holiday with you."I went over and hugged her from behind."That doesn't mean I can.I'm sorry chico."She kissed my cheek."I would love to.I really would.But I can't."I turned her over and kissed your forehead."Why?"

        "My mother thinks that I should try to get to know my father which is the last thing I want to do but...if she wants me to I know there is a reason.She doesn't ask for anything.Whatever I did till this age was me.She suggested what I could do but I only did what I wanted from those suggestions.Now she wants me to do something and that's what I'll do."I sighed as I pulled her into a hug.I'm here.Struggling to have a relationship with my own father whom I have known my whole life and here she is...trying not to be with her father that she just met.We both have our issues I guess."At least tell me who your father is."She scoffed witha  smirk."You're smooth Malfoy.Real smooth but...not that smooth."She paused and the devilish smirk on her face faded."The reason I'm not telling you is not because he is ashamed of me and doesn't want me to be known as his daughter.It's because I am ashamed of him for being my father."

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        He looked like he understood.I don't know how long can Nagini go in my trunk without proper air."You should go.It's late.We still have school tomorrow.See you in potions class."I kissed his cheek as I got the tip of my toes.He leaned and gave me peck on the lips.It was small and short and it didn't feel right."You can't do that."I grabbed him from his collar and kissed him.After he left I let Nagini out."Malfoy lad huh?"I sighed."Please don't tell him.I'm begging you Nagini.He is just a boy who has a crush.And god dammit I like him too."Nagini crawled around my neck."If you don't break up with him I'll tell my Lord about this.""No.Nagini please!"But she tightened her grip around my neck and I couldn't breathe."Nagini please don't!We're kids!"She loosened her grip."You weren't a kid when you chose to have the great Dark Mark on your fore arm.Now you are?"I nodded with tears coming out of my eyes."Nagini we're 13.Please.He'll probably end up dying once he rises.It'll be over eventually!Please don't tell him Nagini!"

        She tightened the grip around my neck."Nagini please!"I was barely breathing.When I woke up sun's rays were coming inside from the glass window as it blinded me with it's bright light.It was raining and the sun soon left.I wore my fishnets before I wore my green plaid prep skirt.I wore my white shirt and tied my green-silver tie around my neck.It burned.I never once told anyone the way Nagini abused me like this.This wasn't the first time.I wish it was.Ever since I got the Dark Mark her actions toward me changed.She became more deadly.More threatening.Tears never once stopped as I changed into my school uniform.I wore my sweater and for today I wore my scarf too.T-T-They can't know.Snape can't know.Draco can't know.