His Goddaughter,His Darling

My Struggles

         Snape and I were now stuck in the storage room.I started panicking because I really wanted to make it to my room without getting caught.Finally Snape left and I left too.I don't even know how I made it to my room!I immediately wrote to Barty about Snape's supplies going missing.That idiot is thinking that Snape is an idiot.To his unfortunate Snape is NOT an idiot.I fell asleep and hoped the day would end.

       For days I've had this bad feeling and it's not getting any better.I know something is gonna go wrong!Something is going to go wrong!I'm certain of it.And that's freaking me out.I'm on the edge.Constantly!I almost screamed when Stefan tapped on my shoulder."Whoa!Chill Ula it's just me."I sighed in relief."What's wrong?You've been like this for days.If it's the thrid task...don't worry.Everything will be ok."I shook my head."Something is wrong.I know it.Not about the tournament.Something is wrong in general.When I think about it I can't breathe.When I try to dismiss it my anxiety takes over.I-I don't know what to do.Do I think about it?Do I not think about it?Something is wrong."I let out a shaking breath."Hey hey hey.Calm down.What makes you think that?"One thing that not many people knows is that seeing nightmares are not my only specialty.I see visions of kids like our Divination professor,Trelawney.She comes with riddles.I don't know what the hell I do.Mother said that before Voldemort went for Harry I cried for weeks.Knowing something was wrong.

       "Let's leave it braveheart."He sighed."Sure."We sat there in silence."I think I'm gonna go.""Sorry.I'm really not the person you want tot alk to right now."He smiled."It's ok.I'll see you around."I nodded and he walked away.I was sitting under the tree.Trying to read or write to take my mind off of things.Cedric settled next to me."Hey."I jumped out of my place."I didn't mean to scare you."I sighed."It has noti-"But I couldn't continue because it had everything to do with him.I saw him.In one of the flashes.Lying on the ground.It was all a blur but I would know that yellow uniform anywhere."Ula?"I snapped back to reality."Sorry what were you saying?""I was heading to the library again.We had a nice time last time so I thought you would like to come with me."I smiled."I'd actually like that."He got up and helped me get up too.

      We entered the library and sat down.Maybe it's the silence but I can actually focus on my schoolwork.This potions essay is kicking my butt...is what I would say if it wasn't easy for me.I just write what I know.It takes me a solid 10 minutes to write one page.As we were studying and sneaking snacks into the library I saw Draco.I he sat down on a corner and opened his notebook.I noticed that he wrote a lot but I never really asked what he wrote about.I don't quiet really understand but I did hear him cursing about finishing another notebook."Psst!"Cedric whispered."Bean me."When librarian wasn't looking I threw a bean and Cedric caught it with his mouth."Congrats Diggory.You're not just a pretty face appearently."He narrowed his eyes."I got through the first two tasks of the tournament and this is what determines that I am not just a pretty face for you?"I nodded."Exactly Diggory.Exactly."

     "Your turn."I handed him the beans."Bean me Diggory."He threw and I caught it."You're nto just a pretty face either Lopez."I winked."You're getting it."The beans flavor was...green apples.If this isn't fate what are the chances of me getting this bean and Draco eating a green apple in the library?We kept studying.Then Draco left."Cedric?""Yeah?"I took in a breath."Nothing."Then Pansy sat to my right."I didn't know you studied Lopez."I rolled my eyes."Oh please let me be perra."She rolled her eyes."Do you really want to be that blind?Rolling your eyes at me?"She did it again and this time I took out my wand.Then she looked around."What did you do to me?!"She tripped over when she tried to leave.She tripped over and fell on the floor all the time until the librarian noticed her and took her to Madam Pomfrey."Is she going to stay blind?""Unless I reverse it?Yeah."His eyes widened."Whoa!I'm never gonna mess with you.""Glad you learned your lesson unlike some."

     Then Snape came tot he library."Ms.Lopez."Emphsis on the 'Z' all the fucking time."Seems like someone snitched on me Diggory."I waved at him and left with my stuff.Dumbledore and Madam Pomfrey was standing beside Pansy."Reverse it."I rolled my eyes."I warned her.Several times on several different occasions,not to mess with me.It is not my fault she kept going and going.""I'M BLIND BECAUSE OF YOU,YOU BITCH!"I scoffed."Yeah keep that attitude coming and you're gonna be mute too."Snape grabbed my arm."Unblind her Lopez."I looked him right in the eye."If you knew me a tiny bit you know I wouldn't until she stops."He let go of me harshly."Ms.Lopez this is 50 points from Slytherin.If you keep going I have to get more.And detention is out of the question right now."I scoffed."I already gained over 100 points to my house this year to this day.If I lose fifty,the points I gained will be down to 50 and that doesn't really scare me.Winning the house cup is never my intention sisnce you always find a way to make it end up in Gryffindor whatever we do.I'm not going to work my ass off for a Cup we won't win in the end.So what makes a differance if I unblind her now or hours later?"

      "Ms.Lopez are you questioning how just I am?""Took you long enough.The whole house is questioning it since Harry's arrival four years ago."I turned around and left.I got out of the hospital wing and Dumbledore came after me."Ms.Lopez do you know who you are talking to?""Not to a fair headmaster that's for sure."He sighed."Ms.Lopez I get that you have your struggles-"I cut him off."Professor you know nothing about my struggles or what I go through on a daily basis.So please don't tell me what to do or how to behave because I am not a dog on your lap that is bound to you.I'm a student with free will who chose to break the rules because she wanted not to be disrespected.Have good day sir."I said aggressively and left.