Univeristy Confessions 2

[DLSU FW]

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Not from La Salle, but my bf is. I just wanna rant out what happened earlier today, May 25 2021.

My boyfriend and I are both closeted gays. We never really get to share much photos of us together on the internet since we are both not ready. Not for the world has to say, but for our families. So yes, a year has passed of us only interacting casually trying for our relationship not to be noticed. Medyo mahirap, for me na naturally showy. Even holding his hand during our dates felt impossible.

Tomorrow is our supposed to be first anniversary. Everything was good and all, really. We never argue like away and sigawan or what, we discuss it kase and see thay we both learn from it. He was younger by a year or two from my age, tho i didnt mind since he was nice and surprisingly ideal. Very understanding niya which i loved the most about him.

We know we both have different things to do for each day. And we respect each others schedules. We update each once in a while in a day ano, para naman less worrying.

Tho this past 2 days, he became unresponsive. Never did a day has passed before that he will not message me throughout. Until kanina, he sent a message saying hes sorry, and hes breaking up with me.

He mentioned things like hes unworthy for my love, i deserve better. The usual stuff i hear. Thats why it kinda bugs me if theres smething hes hiding. Or someone..

Im willing to break up w him if thats what he truly wants. I asked him if he was sure, but he only answered me indirectly by repeating his statements of being unworthy. So what i did first is tell him how nice of a person he is and how much he deserves all the love in the world. The love i give out to him is not even a bit of he should receive, but ofc im putting out more because i love him. But how cld i give more if he doesnt want it diba?

Currently, we got it fixed. Maybe only patched up, might fall apart any time soon..

What do you think? May hidden intentions kaya yung idea niya for a breal up?? Should I be sad about this?? I felt numb tonight after we talked. My mind, drowned in just a thought.

I was about to finish a portrait of us together for our anniversary only to hear you asking for a break up.. I was so excited to show it to you. It was supposed to be a gift of love. But now it just reminds me of the pain i felt.

What ever happens, happens...

- your little 5'1 cactus

Ps. I love you super 💗