Univeristy Confessions 2

[DLSU FW]

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Hello!

I just want to get this off my chest since I can't tell my friends regarding this matter. I don't want to alarm them whatsoever since I love them so much. Since this is anonymous, it would be great. My health is failing. My lungs are failing. The case of hemoptysis is getting worse. I always had weak lungs. I always had this condition ever since I was a kid so it did not concern me that much but this year, it got worse. I've been spitting more blood than usual, almost everyday to be precise. My doctor gave me a medicine to control it and it does on some days yet I always feel like my time is almost up. Twelve years ago,  my doctor told me I was fine as dandy but he told something to my parents which made them cry and I was in a state of confusion as to why such news would make them cry and five years ago I finally got my answer. My mom finally told me what the doctor said and she said my life expectancy was 20 to 30 years old but if I am lucky, it could go beyond if I take care of my lungs and avoid anything related to smoking. I guess I wasn't lucky after all. It is really funny how the world works and how unfair things can be. I've a lot of big things I want to do but I guess that can wait. I'll just have to make do to what I have right now.

For now, I'm doing the things (hobbies) that I love, like  collecting watches! I am also shooting my shots by conversing to women I am enamored about and telling those who I adore the reasons why I do! I'll just make the best out of the remaining time I have. There's no time to loathe. I'll take what it is because it is what I have. I guess these little things with small victories will have to do. To my friends and family, I love you until the ends of the Earth.