Univeristy Confessions 2

[ADMU FW]

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so I matched with this chick online, and we really hit it off. She played along with my jokes, made witty comments
and overall the banter was just so natural.
She became my go to chatmate over the coming weeks and we started to share more and more about each other.
I was really impressed with what she had to say about different things, because she reeled in the topics in such
an interesting way.
As we grew more and more familiar with each other, the conversation eventually went into the direction of
meeting.
She seemed to be hesitant at first but in the end we made a date.

And thus, the day came. I was at our meeting spot, 10 minutes early and a bit nervous inside.
Then I spotted a figure moving through the crowd making its way towards me.
Was that really her? yep. her face checked out.
My goodness, she was twice as beautiful in real life as she was in her pictures. Her colourless sundress
accentuated her curvy yet petite figure. And she had the voice of an angel.
I honestly asked myself if I was dreaming when we gave our pleasantries.
"This is too good to be true." was all that filled my head.
And so yun, we spent the day in the mall, watched a movie, played at the arcade-
ate at a restaurant.
And the whole time we hit it off as much as we did in the chat, my nervousness died when I found
that she was exactly the kind of playful, witty and charming person I chatted with the past few weeks.
She didn't make it hard at all for me to flirt with her.
At the end of the day we were both super tired and looked for a place to chill.
The time was about 9, and we found ourselves with our own little spot facing manila bay.
We talked about a shit ton of stuff, the topics online, the goings of the day, etc.
Silence suddenly pervaded, and the atmosphere was so hot.
We looked straight at each other for a whole minute, getting closer with each second.
Then suddenly, she told me that she had to confess something.

What was it? I wondered.
"I'm trans."
My heart suddenly sank.
what? did i hear that right?
trans ka pala? but your voice? your figure?
"post-op na po ako."
ahhh. I see. so it really was too good to be true.
I withdrew my head, smiled and we talked about it. She opened up to me about her life concerning
her gender, and I just sat there listening- as a friend.
At the mall entrance, we were wrapping up.
She said she had a great time and reached in for a hug but I presented my hand instead
and shook it while patting her back, like I do with all my bros.
I am quite a conservative and a traditionalist person. I am vehemently against transgender ideology.
These sentiments I have till now, to an extent.
I wouldn't just blurt that out to her face though, because sincerely, she is one of the best conversation
buds I ever had.

So I wouldn't stop chatting to her because of that, she is very much one of a kind.
We kept on chatting, and if anything, our conversations only grew more and more livelier.
We met more often, and spent more time with each other. Everything just clicked so much.
Every night my heart is in a storm.
Everytime we meet, she always has something new to say.
I try my best not to flirt with her after hearing her confession, but with the way her personality is-
that's impossible.
The way she walks, the way she speaks, the way she smells, the small changes
in her face whenever she expresses something. her smile. Fuck.
She is by far more feminine and enjoyable to be with than all the girlfriends I had before.

I guess in short, its making me question alot of things.
Alam naman siya what my preferences are, based on that night in the mall.
What I don't know exactly at this point is, what my own preferences are.
Siguro she must be an exception? Right?? Do I say nohomo and go for it?
Lots of people know the word trap. I never thought id get myself into one.

ay ay ay

I really wanna hold on to what I believe in, that's always been me.

But for her, do I compromise?

Submitted:  November 29, 2019 8:54:31 PM +08