Univeristy Confessions 2

[LETRAN FW]

#LetránFW12

I met a guy last April. It was just supposed to be a hook up but our one night stand turned out to be something more. We ended up talking for hours until we figured out we were actually interested with each other. We continued to see and talk to each other for months. To make the long story short, I like him and the feelings were mutual. Fast forward to July, I decided that I should move out from home because things are getting toxic with family. Of course I told him this. Though he didn't explicitly say he was sad about it, he told me he did not want to be far from me. So I searched for apartments and condominiums near Makati so as not to be too far from him. He opened up the topic of moving in together and sharing the rent. I was surprised and got gleefully excited. I told him I already found a condo near his place which is only just a ride away via commute. I told him that we should take things slow but assured him he could stay at my place whenever he wants. We agreed to this set up: slowly moving in together. I told him he could first leave a toothbrush, next some slippers, then a towel, until there's nothing more to bring except himself. We were both happy at the idea. August came in and it was time for me to move in to my new place. He told me he would be staying my place as soon as I get settled in. But that never happened. After settling in, he started not returning my calls or messages. I couldn't find him on social media anymore. I was in a total block out. Nevertheless, I kept on texting him everyday- hoping he would one day return my messages for two weeks. Then I figured out the only messaging platform he hadn't blocked me was viber. So last night I tried my chances and messaged him there. I told him that the silence was deafening and begged him that if he wasn't going to talk to me anymore, at least he tell me why or tell me if I should wait for him. I waited, and I waited for a reply. First he told me he was at work and he'll get back to me once he got out or found the time. A few minutes later he messaged me again. This time he told me what happened. Apparently, he met an old someone and some things got rekindled and he didn't know how to tell me. I was at a burst of emotions: anger, frustration, contempt, disappointment, and sadness but I found my composure. I wanted to yell and be mad at him but all I could say was that I hope he be treated well, that he will be happy. He thanked me and wished me "the best of everything". I just simply responded: "I can't do anything if you want to leave. My only wish is for you not to forget me." He promised me he wouldn't and told me to take care. I was devastated last night. I woke up today remembering the unfulfilled promises we made. I remembered the song we used to play. So I went on to spotify to play it one last time. "I will wait for you" by Us the Duo. I listened to it very carefully and tearfully. How these promises wouldn't be kept anymore and at the spur of the moment I vibered him one last time today, I told him "bye" with a link to our song. He just replied with a sad face. And that's that. And no, I am not okay.

Submitted:  August 15, 2019 10:19:53 AM +08