Univeristy Confessions 2

[ADMU FW]

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I told my best friend I'm not gonna be able to talk to her for a few days.

She said it was okay. It was college after all. She understood that I had so much to do. But days turned into weeks and then months. I didn't communicate with her at all during that span of time.

Once, I was going through my photos, and I came across our picture by accident. It was from 2018. Guilt washed over me as I looked at  my phone. Back then, I was a total mess. I had so much family problems to deal with, I was stressed with acads, and my mental health wasn't in the best state. I pushed everyone away, but for some reasons she stayed. I gave her so much reasons to leave, but she didn't even budge. She would always say, "I'm not leaving. Dito lang ako. Best friend kita eh, sorry ka." She believed in me when I didn't even believe in myself. From that day on, I told myself I'm going to take care of her and make sure that I'll make it up to her. So I would talk to her everyday, check up on her and arrange hang outs with her.

But recently, I've failed to do all those. Although she's very understanding and kind, I can't help but feel bad. She helped me get through my worst days, but here I am not giving her even the slightest attention. Di ko man lang naisip na she might have been going through something else when she was helping me with my battles.

G, I wanted you to feel loved like the way you made me did. I'm sorry for not being the friend you deserved. I know it's selfish of me to ask this, but please stay. You deserve only the best, but I promise I'll be better.

To everyone out there who is blessed with good friends, please cherish them. They might tell you that it's okay, but is it really? They're human beings who get hurt too. Don't wait for the day you'll lose them, because by then it would already be too late.

Submitted:  September 21, 2019 12:00:20 PM +08