Univeristy Confessions 2

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About 3 years ago, I was a freshman.

Every block was having their own thing, everyones going out every night to exile, people eating lunch together in gonzaga.

And I was there alone with no friends and hangout buddies.

My bestfriend and my then-boyfriend were from UP and it was hard for me to see them.

One day, my then-boyfriend and I were talking about my loneliness problem and he said to me, "why don't you really TRY to make friends?"

So i took his advice. That day, I was ready to talk to the first person I saw in class.

Fortunately (or unfortunately), the first person I saw was Bobby* (not his real name but tbh who names their kid bobby in manila, right?). Bobby was in all my classes and I knew his face and I was really drawn to his vibe.

That day, I became friends with him and we instantly clicked and he introduced me to all his blockmates and I became friends with them too.
We would go out and eat in Barkada or drink in Lan Kwai and go out every night. There were some nights that it was just me and Bobby and we would talk about his daddy issues or my problems with my then-boyfriend.

Truth be told, I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend and I started dating Bobby.

And boy, was it an adventure.

We would go everywhere. We would check secret spots in Ateneo or go out with our friends and sneak out from our parents. We would have fights where I chased him all the way to SOM Forest and we would cry together and make up. We danced in the dark in his living to the song of Robbers by 1975 and boy did it feel like a movie. No joke, we even climbed a mountain together and visited 4 strip clubs in the red light district in makati just because we were so curious.

Basically, it was two kids having the time of their lives being young and living recklessly.

Until it wasn't.

Suddenly Bobby stopped wanting to be with me and he said he "needed space". He stopped wanting me around his new friends and I felt like he didnt want me hanging around with them. He told me "I don't feel like Bobby, I feel like your boyfriend". It hurt me that he didnt wanna be wi5h me anymore because he said we spent too much time together. I became so depressed and I cried everytime I was alone or when he wasn't there.

Then one day he hit me.

We were both drunk and he slurred and said, "you don't take care of me anymore" then he hit my face. Infront of our 3 friends.

After that, it took another 1-2 months of abuse and manipulation on his part for us to break up.

And for another 6 months, we still met up and talked and "went out together" just because i couldn't let go of him and he couldn't let go of me.

Now that i'm in third year, i keep thinking of the past and how my first friend in Ateneo became the best and worst thing that ever happened to my life.
He was that one great love who made me feel like we were in a movie.

I'm seeing all these posts about freshmen going to Ateneo and I can't help but feel nostalgic about my first two years here. First year was such a different atmosphere and everyone's mindset was all about partying and being with their blockmates (which altogether isnt a bad thing).

I just hope you guys have the best four years of your life here in Ateneo and I just wanted to tell this story because college is such a wild ride and you'll meet good and bad people along the way.

Above all, you will learn and grow in college. And I assure you, it won't just stop there.

Submitted:  July 23, 2019 9:12:30 PM +08