Univeristy Confessions 2

[The Elbi Files]

[TW: Rape]

First ever sembreak. I went home for a vacation. Got drunk with my three HS friends.

The next morning I woke up in the car completely naked and sore. I initially thought that something might have happened between me and that one guy who was with me by the time I woke up. But this other guy messaged me asking if I remember anything from that night.

He confessed. He said he saw me naked. He saw what the other two were doing to me. He said he was sorry but he was only tempted to do it.

We were all drunk. I totally passed out. But they knew what they were doing. All three of them. I can't exactly remember what happened. I wouldn't even know what the two did if he didn't confess.

I didn't know what to do. I had no one to tell what happened. I was so scared of how my mom would react. I felt so sorry for her. I was helpless. I went home as if nothing happened.

No one knows my story even until now except for a friend. I only got the courage to share this after so many years. I felt so ashamed of myself. I felt so dirty. All this time I thought it was my fault. Because I trusted them. I trusted that they would never do such thing to me. But I trusted the wrong people.

Mga putangina ninyo. Ramdam ko pa din yung sakit dahil sa kababuyan niyo hanggang ngayon pagkatapos ng 10 taon. Diring-diri pa din ako sa inyo mga hayop kayo.

P.S. They also took everything from my wallet.

- Abused, 2009, CHE