NOTHING FEELS THE SAME

Chapter 45

2 weeks later

Sam was in one of the many guest rooms at the William's house. Nothing had been heard from Gary or Max. Sam had started to get very depressed, it wasn't good for the baby. She was 16 weeks pregnant and today she was having a scan. And Gary wasn't there.

Sam dragged herself out of bed and downstairs to the kitchen. There was fresh fruit out as well as juice. All she had to do was put the toast in the toaster. But even that seemed to hard. She put some food on a plate and walked to the table to eat.

As she sat her dressing gown fell from around her stomach and she cursed. She felt huge, but really she wasn't that big. It would only get worse. She started to eat and started at the photos on the wall. Gary and Rob sitting shirtless on a rock. Sam and Chloe drinking frappe's surrounded by heaps of bags of shopping in America. She missed those days. And Gary.

"Hey Sam, how ya doin?" Robbie asked as he pulled out the chair beside her. His hair was wet, he smelled really fresh and he only had a towel wrapped around his waist. But Sam didn't even notice.

"Shit I guess, I miss him" She tried not to cry, she was done with that. "I've got my scan today, Gary was soo excited for this, and now he will miss it!" She let go and started crying. Robbie pulled her head to his shoulder and did his best to soothe her.

"Sam, shhhh it's alright. Do you want me or Chloe to go with you?" Rob asked when she fell silent. "No, this is mine and Gary's thing. He should be here" Sam sniffled. "Okay, well if you change your mind, we'd be happy to go with you" "Thanks rob"

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Sam was sitting in the waiting room, she left Robbie at the table and went to have a shower. Her hair was still wet and pulled up in a bun. She didn't bother with make up. She didn't care. She wore Gary's hoodie, it was cold out and she didn't have anything big enough.

"Miss Rigby?" The doctor called out. She got up and followed the nurse. "Can you please make note it's Mrs Barlow now?" She asked. "Oh yes of course! Congratulations, where is your handsome husband then?" No one new about what happened to Gary. It had been kept quiet. "Errr, he's working. You know, off with the boys locked in some studio" the nurse didn't looked convinced. "Oh well, he's missing out. This is a fun one!"

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"Awwww, look at that. Baby's sucking on its thumb!! Ill get you a photo of that" she nurse was very good at her job. "Baby is very healthy, everything is looking good. Would you like to know the gender?"

Sam stopped. It would be wrong to know and Gary not. But she needed this. "Isn't it to early?" Sam asked. "No, I've got a good view here" "Okay then, you can go call Gary. It's a girl!"

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'Someone help me, I need some food, not the scraps this wanker is feeding me. I hope he stays away today, then he won't hurt me again. I think I want to die. I feel like I've been here forever. I can't count the days. I can't even see when it's daytime. I want a bed. I want Sam, my friends. My baby, oh Sam please find me!'