NOTHING FEELS THE SAME

Chapter 64

"Gary where are you going?" Sam yelled at him. He was in at he bedroom getting dressed at a rate of notts. "Out" he replied. He picked up his new phone and told his driver to come get him. "Gary your not going out by yourself" Sam argued. "Your right, that's why James is going too." He headed into the bathroom and picked up his toothbrush. "Ellie is going to kill you" "No she not."

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"Where's Gary?" Ellie asked as she came out of the shower with a towel wrapped around her head. "Errrr, he ummm he went to. I dunno, he just went out" Sam told her "WHAT! Who's with him?" "Ah, James I think" "You think? Oh my god, hey you! Get a trace on that new phone" Ellie screamed at the nerd. "Ellie would you just stop! He wants to be alone, he'll be fine" "You don't get it. It's my job to watch him all the time! If anything happens to him it's my fault!"

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Gary was sitting in the back of the car in silence when his phone vibrated.

Sam

They're tracing your phone

He shut his eyes and slumped his head back against the headrest. He was fighting tears, all he wanted was to be alone. He reached over to wind down the window but stopped just short of the button when his arm couldn't stretch any further. He sat back and bit his lip, he had no idea how to take a battery out of an iPhone.

"What's wrong mate?" James asked him. "Can you throw this out the window please?" "Err, sure. Where you get an iPhone from anyway?" He asked as he took it. "They swapped our phones over so we couldn't be tracked." He sighed "Ah" James threw it out the window. "Where am I taking you exactly?" "I dunno, biggest shopping centre you can find" Gary shut his eyes and got comfy.

"Wake up sleepy, were here" James nudged him from the front. "Huh, oh right thanks. Pick me up in bout 3 hours?" He looked at James. "No way man, I'm coming with you" He shook his head. "There will be heaps of people in there, I'll be fine" Gary went to get out of the car and James followed suit. Gary shook his head "No no that's fine, why don't you come too" Gary said sarcastically.

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Once in the shopping complex he made his way do the nearest directory. He browsed over it looking at the places he could go and get Sam a few things, he knew they didn't pack her much. He even looked at the baby shops, he knew he was going to have to pay Sam back for before. Eventually he found the one thing he was looking for and made note of its location.

After 3 hours and bags and bags later he made his way to the store he wanted to go to. Ann Summers. "Man, I thought you were normal" James muttered from behind him. Gary turned around the expression on his face was heartbreaking. "You can't imagine what I've been through, you wouldn't be able to understand what I'm feeling. Once you have something everyday like clockwork and then it's taken away from you you crave it. If your that disturbed by this then you can wait out here, I'm only going to be in there" Gary indicated to the door. "Na, I've got your back mate" James patted his shoulder.

"There is some weird shit in here!" James shook his head. "Yeah well, don't look at it" Gary headed to where he wanted to go. James took some bags from Gary so he could study what he was holding. "Isn't that a bit... Small?" James asked and raised his eyebrow. Gary looked at him with unmistakable tears in his eyes. Gary bit his lip and turned around and grabbed the slightly bigger one.

"GARY BARLOW!" The shop assistant screamed. 'Fuck' "Yep that's me" He smiled at her. Her eyes widened as she looked at what he placed on the counter, but she chose to ignore it. "Can I please have a hug?" She smiled at him. "Err yeah, sure" she ran around the counter and squeezed him. He held his breath and tried not to wheeze out in pain as he wrapped his arms around her. "Thankyou" she gave him a quick kiss on the cheek the went and put through his items. "Here you go, have a great knight!" She winked as he left the store. "Take me home, now!" Gary told James.

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Gary spent the journey home surrounded by shopping bags. There were heaps of them!! But only the one for him. "We're here, you need any help with those bags or are you right?" James asked. "All good mate, if Ellie sees you she will kill you. Thanks" Gary grabbed his bags and headed for the front door.

"WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!" Ellie screamed at him as she kicked open the door. "Shopping" he told her as he pushed through the door way. He headed straight to the bedroom. "What the hell Gary!" Sam exclaimed as she saw the amount of bags he had. "We needed some stuff" he shrugged and dropped the bags on the floor.

"Your not getting out of this that easy Barlow!" Ellie stood in the doorway with her arms crossed. "Here" he searched through a couple of bags before throwing one at her. "What's this?" She asked. "It's a dress, you know, girls like to wear them sometimes. Your going to need it." He told her. "Why?" She asked shaking her head. "We've got a party coming up, now go try it on" he smiled. "Gary, what's this?" Sam asked holding the Ann Summers bag. She looked inside it and showed Gary her fish impression. "Sam, we need to talk" Gary whispered as Ellie came bursting though the door in her dress.

It was a long black evening dress covered in sparkles, it had one strap going over the shoulder and a low cut back. "Wow, you look gorgeous! Where's mine?" Sam laughed. "You look stunning Ellie, I've got yours somewhere Sam, don't worry" he smiled. "Can you give us some privacy for a minute please Ellie?" Sam asked. "As long as you don't run away!" Ellie shook her head at Gary.

"Right Gary, explain why I'm holding a bag with dildos in it" Sam looked him in the eye.