Jason McCanns P.O.V of The Don't Fall For The Criminal Series (All Three Books)

Chapter 88 - I Missed You

[Correlates with Chapter 57 After The Runaway. Book 3]

I can't sleep. I'm so happy and grateful to be home. But for some reason I've been staring at the ceiling for the last one or two hours. I don't know why.

That's a lie. I do know why.

My body wants Xanax. I've been fighting so hard against it. Because I don't need it anymore. I'm home. With no worries. But my body feels like it needs it. I was strong enough to tell myself no.

Until now.

I looked over at Mackenzie sleeping so peacefully. She's sleeps so cutely. I slowly rolled out of bed. I carefully walked over to my backpack, grabbing it and walking into the bathroom. I shut the door quietly. I set my backpack on the counter and zipped it open. I grabbed the plastic bag of pills that Sam gave me.

I think I'll be okay to take them just for tonight. I grabbed two from the bag and I took them.

***

Usually when Mackenzies checking me out, all I could do is smirk and want her even more. But this time, with the towel around my waist, she's looking at me with such sad eyes. I know it's because the few bruises I have on my rib cage on both sides of my body.

"Angel" I said quietly and softly to pull her from her thoughts. Her eyes connected with mine now. She still looked at me with sad eyes. She didn't even try to hide it. "I'm okay." I said with a chuckle. I walked over to wear she was sitting on the bathroom counter and I stood between her legs.

"I know" She said back. "I was just looking" She said with a shrug. I'll let it go then. I know she's just worried.

"I missed you" I told her as I placed my hands on her waist.

"I missed you too so much" She said back then kissed me softly. "I was really scared" She told me as she wrapped her arms around my neck. I sighed and nodded.

"I know. I'm sorry, babe. Every chance I could, I would try to call from a pay phone, but it never worked. It made me so angry. I didn't have every day so it was even more frustrating" I explained then shook my head.

"I'm just happy now that you're home, you're safe, and you're okay" She said and I smiled a little.

"Me too, baby girl" I quietly said before leaning in and kissing her so passionately. "I just have to put clothes on then we can head over to Johnson's" I said and kissed her once more.

"Okay, babe" She said then she pulled me into another kiss. I smirked as we pulled away. My baby girl. I stepped back and started to head out of the bathroom and into our room.

"I love you!" I yelled to her as I walked into the closet. I smiled to myself as I heard her yell back, "I love you too!"

I love that girl so much.

***

"Thank you." I said nodding to Johnson. He just told me how him and Travis took Mackenzie to her doctors appointment for the baby. And how they all took care of her and Drew. "I hate that I missed that. Again." I said shaking my head. "But seriously thank you." I said nodding again. He nodded too.

"Of course." He said then shrugged. Then he took a deep breath. "We thought you were dead." He told me honestly.

"You can't kill Jason McCann." I said with a smirk. He chuckled. Then he looked away and his expression dropped. That was weird. "There's actually something I wanted to talk to you about." He said as he shifted in his seat uncomfortably. Oh god.