The Girl Who Literally FAILED At Life

My 5 Regrets

Summary Of Day:

Today was lit!

Jk

My life sucks, Poe and I played a Star Wars game. Class Clown was kicking me, and Lion Dude kept pushing me...ugh...Cheeto Head only said a few words. And everyone around me wouldn't stop being like "YOUR PRECIOUS CHEETO!"

And when I just started to get over him...

Can't life just give me a clean slate to get over this guy?

I swear it's like he knows...

Because every moment I feel like giving up he pops up with something and it's like...well maybe he likes me.

Don't you just love it when life likes to ruin you? :p

Well since that was boring I'm doing my top 5 regrets.

5. I regret letting people get to me, I usually over react at the smallest things. And if someone just seemed to give me a look I would always think they must think I'm annoying. And when I feel like I didn't please my teachers I beat myself up (mentally). I used to not care about this crap but you know...life pressures me...

4. I regret getting a crush...it just complicates my life a lot and it's so stupid. Now I'm stuck in this stupid loop where I'm like "Aww that was sweet...maybe he could possibly like me..." to "This is so absurd..." and if you can't tell by this book it just loops around and around...it's super stupid especially since in the beginning I thought he liked me. So yeah I'm trying hard to end this...getting over someone is not easy like I thought...

3. I regret telling ANYONE I had a crush. I've had crushes in the past, I've kept it to myself and like that life goes on and I get over it. Maybe I would've told people like KC, Mira, littlemisslukey, austineorautie, etc. but beside that there was that stupid website thing that I got upset about and people spilling beans left and right. They will stay unnamed but there are multiple people. I'm usually not the type to get upset, I laugh it off and move on but it's been bothering me lately. I'm not saying you can't tease me or stuff, but when people post websites and tell everyone it's bound to make me upset and never trust you again. And honestly I can't trust most people in my house anymore so how does it feel when it comes back full circle to school?

2. I regret not spending more time with my grandpa...honestly I feel like crap that I haven't done much....

Crap I was gonna write a paragraph but then I started tearing up and realized I couldn't make it...

Sorry guys...

1. I regret losing MM as a friend...

Dammit I hate admitting this...

But he was a nice guy and he was probably my first new friend at that school....he wasn't to awkward but he wasn't to social and he always would fill up my awkward holes and crap. It's just...

Well he took my trust and threw it in the garbage.

Then stomped all over it by being rude.

I think awhile ago I mentioned that I didn't want to lose him as a friend? Well I did. And now I feel kinda bad...especially for not forgiving him sooner. It was just a homework assignment anyway...

I need to stop beating myself over this...

So yeah what's your five regrets?