The Girl Who Literally FAILED At Life

Probably The Most Important Chapter You'll Ever Read

Note: You can fuck up your own life as you please but this is the result. If you do actually smoke weed you aren't just letting yourself down but the other people around you. I'm just telling you the result of a stupid action you think might be "cool".

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I would be lying if I said I still want you along my side, especially on a team you fucked up everything. This last tournament was suppose to be fun, instead you divided everyone. You made us loose. And worse of all you put multiple lives in danger. 14, 14, 14, 12, and you.

A fucking 12 year old.

I'm so disappointed in your actions, you cost us the whole tournament. You let us all down, as a team we stick together. We have each other's back.

You made a choice, and your choice wasn't to have our backs.

Instead you betrayed us all, fuck when one of the 18u parents found out they asked their son (Theater Dude) that knows me if I was one of them. If I smoked weed.

What if that parent just assumed I did it? "Stay away from Lynda Parson son, she smokes pot."

You ruined us! You hurt us! Do you know what would happen if any of this got out?! What would we be remembered for? "14u Summer Team 2017? Oh yeah didn't they smoke pot?"

God damn it I couldn't sleep, you put me AND my family through so much pain. We have to choose between you and the right thing to do.

Then blaming people on the team because it got out, YOURE THE ONE BRAGGING ABOUT IT!

I can't look at you the same, I can't look at any of them the same. I thought we were a team a week ago... Now all I see is a mess. And that's how we ended the season, a mess, a pile of rumble, destructive, in pain.

You guys don't have terrible lives either, I've seen all of your parents. They let you do anything because they trust you.

We could've won, I tried my best and worked my butt off trying and working hard for all of you. None of you hit the ball, you guys barely fielded correctly.

14, 14, 14, 14, 12. Getting drunk, smoking weed, talking about losing their virginity, not remembering more than half of the night. You put yourself in so much danger, what for?

To be kicked off the team of the one person we idolize the most. You may not know it, but 2 of you are going. And once she and her dad finds the rest you'll all be gone.

It's no ones fault but your own. You self destructed yourself and I'm not going to be there when the bomb finally explodes.

I won't back you up, because you didn't back me up. You hurt us all.

So don't be surprised if I don't text you.

Don't be surprised if in our carpools I stare aimlessly out the window.

Don't be surprised when the person I used to idolize two years ago is the person I hate.

I can't explain how much it hurts, smoking weed doesn't just hurt your chances for your future. But it hurts the ones you tell, the ones you blame, you feel like you've been let down.

Because I want to protect you, I want to root for you, but the day you made that choice and decided to drag others down with you showed how much you care about me. You couldn't have thought about the consequences.

What would happen if we know? I'm so utterly disappointed in you.

Why did the season have to end this way?