The Girl Who Literally FAILED At Life

I Give Up

Days Survived Of Yandere's Presence: 45 :-:

We don't dab anymore
We don't dab anymore
We don't dab anymore like we use to do!!!
We don't dab anymore
What was all of it for?
Ohh we don't dab anymore like we used to do
I just heard you've found the one you've been dabbing
You've been dabbing for
I wish I would've known that it wasn't me
Cause even after all this time...

Well today started off normal...actually it didn't. KC was moved into drama with her band group because the 8th graders of her class were taking SATs. (We only have 2 8th graders in our class so them leaving didn't affect us.)

But basically I was forced to sit next to "Jason" because Mira had a doctors appointment and wasn't there for the first half of school.

And KC didn't save me a seat...thanks a lot.

And so basically we watched Grease and made cereal necklaces like we were 4 year olds.

Then in History we talked about college (all my classes did...) which was sort of a relief since he piled on so much homework.

Luke also told me I had a problem with posting to much on Instagram. This is how it went...

"Lynda, we need to talk..."

"Yeah," I say focusing on my homework.

"I'm serious when I say this..." Luke starts, "You post to much on Instagram."

"Those were my friends yesterday."

"You were holding the camera."

"Just unfollow me, I don't care." I say shrugging.

"I-hmm-I mean-well now I'm considering it." He says as we start to walk.

Then I told him he could ask Cheeto Head who he has a crush on and Luke answered "Mehh, don't feel like it." Which means no.

I'm never going to get a straight answer now.

And then in English when I was talking to myself and Luke answered me, Jerk Dude was like "Awww you guys are a cute couple!"

I wanted to punch him so badly.

And after class I was walking to Math by myself, Cheeto Head was behind me and Luke was talking to him.

Then Iris pulled my backpack strap and said in a voice that they could probably hear, "Cheeto Head is right behind us!"

I quickly turned my head to look at her and whispered "I KNOW!"

And then when I was nearing my Math class "GWLK" was like "Can I ship it?"

"What?"

"You and Luke!"

"NO! Or else!"

"But you guys are so perfect!"

I just walked away.

But Cheeto Head and I entered the class at the same time, he didn't say anything...

We talked about College for like the fifth time today in our math class. The only this we did was nod hello, and he was just randomly looking in my direction while I was spacing out in his direction.

We left the class at the same time, it sorta looked like he was waiting for me...I mean standing and looking at something and starting to leave while I was leaving. Maybe we just so happen to leave at the same time...

And then we were walking side by side, and he sorta fast walks away....he never does that. And then when we were standing right next to each other he didn't say anything! I had to make conversation and ask him the lamest question ever..."What college do you want to attend?"

"Try..."

"I guess, try."

He said his college and then didn't say anything else...does he not like to talk to me. He usually talks to me first...now I feel like crap...because the time I could care less about him he talked to me. Now when I want him to notice me he doesn't respond...or barely responds....I thought that maybe he liked me on Friday and Monday...but yesterday and today just proves me wrong...there were so many interruptions and when we don't have any interruptions he barely responds...

I give up.

I honestly give up.

He's to damn confusing for me.

If he talks to me, that's great. I still like him.

If he doesn't, lots of things are gonna be left unanswered. And I'm gonna be upset with myself.

I mean I took so many things as omens...

The fact there was a random plastic water bottle with just a little bit of water in it. The same exact thing he keeps walking around with...just randomly laying in my PE locker.

The fact that my friend use to talk to him and when they were separated they didn't talk at all.

Or the fact that I was sent chain mail.

Idk if he's interested or not and its killing me!!!!!!!!!

Maybe he had a bad day...hopefully