The Girl Who Literally FAILED At Life

"I Should Stay Strong-"

I mean he acts way more into me then I act into him. So maybe it might be because he thinks I have a crush on him but idk, he just kinda notices weird stuff about me and he acts like he's showing off in an immature way but like idek.

Maybe he doesn't have a crush on me and I'm overthinking shit. But why would he talk about baseball with me if he doesn't like the sport at all? Honestly when anyone brings up soccer I go the other way.

Who knows, and he noticed my nail was broken. (Mind the week before he complimented my nails) I said it was because I was throwing curves and then we went into a talk about baseball pitchers.

And then he noticed when I was drawing on my hand, and he wanted to see what I was drawing. So I showed him and it was a sun and some raindrops.

So he asked if the sun was raining and I just kinda shrugged. And then he also noticed when I was highlighting my nails and he kinda smiled and laughed at me.

He also showed us a picture of him when he had fucking long hair. It was lie Ethan Dolan's hot hair x2. And it was cringe, the definition of cringe. 

And he asked one time if I was going home, I forgot why, but I said no.

That was Monday.

Tuesday is what really got me-

After school he had a babysitter pick him up (because he has a younger sister and brother). So he was talking to E and then he went over to his baby sitter (I think I just saw him with E) and somehow he managed to find me.

He came up to me, kinda combing his hair nervously- and was like, "Lynda I have a question to ask you."

So I'm like, "Shoot."

So he got out his snapchat and was like "Do you know this guy."

And I immediately recognized him as Cheeto Head's friend-

"Yeah I've seen him around..."

Then he says something that made him sound awkward. "Yeah I know him and he goes to *old school* and you said you went there so yeah..."

Then he just walks away and I look away- like that's not weird. That's definitely me when I get awkward in front of my crush, I overexplain shit.

Idk that was just a weird encounter.

Then on Wednesday we were on a field trip and he was sitting next to one of my friends and his best friend. And we got split in fives- and guess what he was split away from his friend to be in our group! With four fucking girls!

WHAT IS THE WORLD TELLING ME-

Then he would kinda randomly say stuff to me and it was so random we had the same conversation twice!

When we were walking back from our field trip he decided to run up to me while I was talking to someone and say "FLEX ON MY EX!" And then show off what he claims to be "muscle".

And so I'm just like "Ok..."

Then he calls out to Callan and Callan doesn't come to him, so I tease him saying Callan doesn't want to follow him to the ends of the earth. And that hes got more important friends.

So he keeps on yelling to him convincing me that he will follow him. Lol no. So he went back to him.

Then later we're standing behind them and he kinda turns to me and smiles then pokes Callan to make him extremely triggered. It was funny but it wasn't like it was some inside joke or anything.

Also when our teachers were talking and the whole class was talking I sneezed and he told me "Bless you!" Like how can you hear me sneeze when people are talking like tf?!

Idk I could be overthinking this, that could be just the way he acts. But everyone like my neighbor and Lucy thinks he has a crush on me. Idk that could be wishful thinking though.

And I never said Brownie but whenever I said he i hope you thought it was Brownie 😂