The Girl Who Literally FAILED At Life

Dance

I was going to choose the slow dance song but I feel this is more appropriate 🙃

So I mean the dance was fun. The squad I hang out with was Lele, my neighbor, and the guy I think has a crush on me.

And then Matthew because of cards and I won one time lol.

There were two slow dances the first one I danced with Lele and then by myself so I looked like a zombie.

Then the second one... Was really awkward. It was the slow dance song from Stranger Things and I just failed at cards so I left to go sit in the corner and film all the ships when the guy who I think has a crush on me followed me out onto the dance floor.

So he asked me to dance so I was like "Sure." And it was so fucking awkward especially since I kinda wanted Brownie to ask me...

I may have asked the same question three times... In a row. And then an annoying kid decided to film and he broke away and I awkwardly just stood there. So he apologized in a way that implied he wanted to keep dancing but I just nodded and wanted to make myself available since Brownie wasn't dancing with anyone.

Then I felt a tap on the shoulder and it was Time Traveler and he's like "Do you wanna dance?"

I looked back at Brownie and it was obvious at this point he wasn't going to make a move so I just danced with him. And god there was a circle around us because everyone ships us...

So many cameras and jokes were made but like he's a decent guy I just don't like him like that.... More like a brother.

And then there was another guy that just wanted a friendly dance because all of his crushed rejected him... So I just did it for the sake of humanity an the fact I was feeling the same way about Brownie.

Ugh. By the time the song was over I was so disappointed because I wanted him to ask me... And it was the only reason I actually went.

But I kinda knew that would happen and I don't know why I set myself up for failure.

Ugh. I hate my life.

After the dance the guy who I think has a crush on me asked "So do you like any of the people who danced with you?" He asked in a way that made me feel like he was asking for himself.

So I just say "The person I like who I thought liked me back didn't really make an effort tonight."

So I asked about his and so I agreed to text him mine in return for his.

Then Brownie came up to me and he's like "Wow. Are all three gonna fight over you?"

In my head I was like "I should say 'Why you wanna join in?'" But all that came out was "No... I don't think so. Lol?"

And one of his friends say "You wish you could get girls like that."

So he answers, "How do you know I don't?"

"In your dreams."

So I texted Lele and the guy I thought had a crush on me and said my crush and the guy texted he had a crush on a girl he barely talks to. So I'm thinking either that last question was for him and he actually has a crush on me or he was asking for Time Traveler cause they're like best friends.

Then I texted Brownie's best friend and she told me her crush and so I just decided to say mine in case she knew some info.

And she answers, "He's kinda obsessed with this freshmen but he has said a few things about you."

So he told me two weeks ago he liked me... And all this time he's like a freshmen. I feel so let on. I knew I regret telling him I liked him back...

Telling me I'm cute, acting like he cares, saying he likes me, all bullshit. Him and his cute face just lying. Beauty is wasted on jerks.

If I could go back to that day we met I would probably just stayed in bed.
You wake up everyday and make me feel incompetent.
I wrote a little song for ya...
I'm do ra mi so fucking done with you babe... So say the ex and ohs on another note. So fucking done with all the games you play.