Can't hate you || e.d

Plot

Can't hate you

Did you ever feel like nothing would be alright.? That no matter how hard you would try.. that you would fail anyways? That type of feeling that you can feel deep in your chest?

Well my whole life I was trying to be a good daughter, friend and girlfriend. I tried my best to be everything for them and forgot to be myself. I forgot to do things for me. I forgot to work on myself and concentrate on what's important for me.

But then.. after some I failed over and over again I couldn't take it anymore and just let myself go. I changes completely and allowed myself to be.. because of that

one guy...

My family hated me even tho I never got to know why. My boyfriend was cheating on me... guess I wasn't such a good girlfriend and my tries were unnecessary after all. My friends? They were just basic two-faced snakes.

At one point I was alone. I wanted that. It was my choice and I wasn't going to regret it.

It all began in that night...

Once my best friend Charlie told me that my boyfriend named Matt was cheating on me with my other best friend Kayla I felt something I've never felt before. It wasn't grief. It was a mixture of disappointment and relief. It was obvious that our relationship wasn't as lovely as it always seemed to the outside.

Sure I was upset. More than that. I felt like I was falling apart. During a very hard time of my life he was actually everything for me because all the problems I had with my family just faded when I was with him... probably because he distracted me with things that were only interesting for him. sometimes he got mad because I never wanted to sleep with him. He hated that I was one of these girls who wanted to wait because it should be something special. I just wasn't ready... that's why he did it with someone else.

Charlie wanted me to get better so she organized a little party in a club with some other friends. That was very kind and I really appreciated that even tho I wasn't n the mood to party. I couldn't understand how that was going to help me but she must've had a plan.

She was the only one who really cared. She was the only one who wasn't a snake. I could trust her with everything. She was a great secret keeper and one of those friends who would cry with you plus some Ben & Jerry's, sad movies and pj's or hype you up whenever you needed it. She had some features that not every best friend could have.

It took us more than three hours to get ready and I still didn't feel as amazing as her. She always said I'm naturally pretty but that night I just felt awful. Luckily she picked an amazing dress for me which made me feel less awful. Actually it was just a simple tight black dress which looked surprisingly good on me. So after the torture of doing our makeup and hair we were heading to the club and out of nowhere she told me that she invited some cute guys.

First I looked at her really shocked and disappointed because this shouldn't be a speed-dating night or anything similar to that but I couldn't be mad at her, I mean she just wanted to help me even if that wasn't the best way in my opinion. That was very kind but if she would've only known what she has done with that..

After a few drinks and some fun I was dancing with a guy who has blond hair. he was tall and handsome. Not my type but that didn't really matter in that moment. I didn't even know his name but all that mattered in that moment was his hand on my waist..

Ethan

Me and my gang were hanging out in the club. In our club. sitting in th shadows of this place was really pleasant sometimes.
I was shaking the ice cubes in my whiskey glass as I saw that girl... there was something that made me.. I don't know. I just wanted to look at her.