Can't hate you || e.d

Playing games

Y/n

I slowly opened my eyes and realized that I was alone. My head was aching and I was still tired. I slowly stood up and looked for him. I already got so used to him that waking up without him felt awkward and uncomfortable.

"Moon?" I got no answer so I walked down to the kitchen.

"Sam?" it was awkward. This silence. I didn't like it. In that moment I realized how boring and meaningless my life would actually without him like who else did I have besides him? Who else was so special and extra who I wanted to spend my time with?

"I'm here honey!"

She came from the backyard. I rubbed my eyes because I needed to get used to the bright daylight.
"Where is Ethan?" I asked while she put a few vegetables and other stuff into the refrigerator.
"Mr. Dolan is-" she got cut off by the laughter of a girl whose voice did not seem similar to any of the other girls noises... She was more chuckling and giggling than laughing. We both looked into the direction where it came from.

I slowly walked to the front door and forgot how to breath. Ethan walked in with a girl under his arm. Excuse me. With a whore.

They both were laughing. My jaw dropped and I was so confused. I could feel how my heart started racing but also aching.. my head started spinning.. she was wearing a very tight and very short dress.. her hair was blond and her face looked like the plastic surgery has gone wrong.

"Maria could you park Stella's car?"

He threw the keys in Maria's direction and I was still confused.

"Oh Y/n I'm so sorry.. I was too horny and actually I couldn't wait for your birthday since you didn't want to tell me.."

I looked at him eyes wide open and began to breath faster. She was touching his arm... he was looking at her and his words.. was he serious? He had to be joking.. He knew exactly how much he would hurt me because Matt did the same.. he had to be messing with me. I knew he couldn't hold his inner bastard back sometimes but this was too much..

Then I noticed the campaign bottle in his hand. They laughed and walked upstairs together. Was it that easy? Was he really going to do what I was thinking about?

"Don't disturb us!" I heard him saying and I felt my chin and underlip shaking and I was sure that I would begin to cry like a baby every second. The only thing I could was watching them walking in his room. I tried to calm down but it felt like I couldn't breathe. What was this? Where was this coming from? Just a day ago we were totally fine and so soft.. he couldn't have done this because I decided to sleep instead of teasing him..

Okay Y/n he's a fuckboy and it's not the first time he's doing that. Besides that weren't we even dating so I had no right to be mad or tell him what to do and what not or to claim him..

I went straight to the backyard. I was walking around like a freak and asking myself why and what and when and how long it would take them. Every minute felt like torture.

Did he just liked her because they were in the same age? Or because she was so thick and I was not? Were they going to do it in his bed, like really? Where did he found her? Was he doing this to make me mad? It was very could outside but I was burning. I kept biting my thumb and thinking about all these questions which made me crazy. I wanted to know what was going on so bad.

I literally spend almost more than a hour with thinking about these things. I totally went insane. Why did I go crazy? We weren't even a couple. We said we wouldn't name this thing between us.. we said we would just look what was going to happen.. well nothing was going to happen like this.

After a while Sam came over to me.

"Y/n are you okay? It's very could and your sitting here for for so long and you didn't eat something." she looked very worried.

"Uh-huh. Everything's great!" that was a lie. I was going crazy. Especially because I didn't have the right to..

I knew she didn't believe me but as she turned around to go I stopped her.

"Sam! Could you do me a favor?" I asked quickly and she nodded. "I know this may sound weird but.. could you.. check what they're doing?"

She raised a brow. I knew she wasn't allowed to bother him in any way especially when he said it but I needed her help. "I know he told us to not bother them but... you could act like you need something or.."

She smiled. "I'll do it." she said smiling. She knew exactly why I needed her help and I was thankful that she was going to help me. I hugged her because of happiness but I was afraid of the results.

Ethan

I laid down on my bed and yawned. She sat down next to me. I was still tired because I got up very early to organize this and some other stuff. God I loved being a dickhead. I would never sleep with her. I just wanted to make y/n mad or even cry because somehow I loved it when she cried because of me in these situations and it showed how much she wanted me...

"So you're just paying me to..?"
I sighed.

"Do nothing and shut up. You can drink or smoke, do whatever you want but make sure that you take your clothes off and lay down in my bed."

She was a whore so that shouldn't be a problem for her.

She did what I said and I closed my eyes. Why was I so tired and exhausted. I could need a little bit more of sleep.. As I was trying to sleep I heard someone knock on my door.

"Fuck." I took my shirt off and messed up my hair since I forgot to do that. I had to be ready if it was y/n because I really expected her to storm in in jealousy. Then I stood up, took the campaign bottle out of her hand, drank a little bit and gave it back to her. I opened the door and it was Sam.

"Sam?" she was looking worried.
"I'm sorry for bothering you Mr. Dolan but Y/n sent me. She wanted me to check on what you're doing."

I laughed. "What took her so long?" I asked. It worked. Of course it worked. I was just waiting for her reaction.
She shrugged and answered "She was in the garden and almost went crazy doing nothing."
I laughed louder. Sam knew what we were doing so she was on my side. Of course she was.

"That's great." I said and she laughed too and asked me "What should I tell her?".
I smirked and whispered into her ear what she should tell her.

Y/n

I was walking in circles imagining what they could be doing and stopped as I saw Sam coming. "And?"

She looked more worried than earlier. I already felt the tears in my eyes. No. I wasn't going to cry. He was doing it on purpose.
"What are they doing?"

I was almost shaking.
"I'm sorry hun... I couldn't find out.. they were laughing and I only could hear music. I knocked but it was impossible for them to hear me."

I took a deep breath and tried to let it sink in..

"Sam you need to give me more details! Please!"
She looked at the ground. "I could only hear Stella laughing and kinda.. it sounded like she was moaning."

I closed my eyes and a tear rolled down my cheek. I swiped it away immediately. He really did it. I was pissed, sad, mad, angry, disgusted and everything at the same time. But then I remembered something. He would never do that. He wanted revenge because I was teasing him and not telling him when my birthday was.. he wanted to punish me because I left him so desperately horny.. or I was lying to myself and he was really fucking her up there.. no matter what was happening.. I was going to show him tat he couldn't mess with me..

"Okay, thank you."
She left and I was struggling.
I literally spend another hour in the yard after Sam told me that. I was thinking about how I was going to make him pay for that... I wanted to know everything but it was too disgusting. One thing was sure.. that I would never sleep in that bed again.

It was too cold so I walked in and saw Ethan coming down the stairs in his bathrobe... he was smirking, his hair was messy and I could smell the alcohol. I clenched my jaw when I saw the red lipstick on his neck which was going down towards his chest...