Can't hate you || e.d

First step

Moon

"How dare you eat these?" I asked Luna while I watched her eat skittles. She furrowed her eyebrows. "How dare you not eat these?" she asked me as disgusted as me.

"Because I'm a normal human being?" I said like it would be obvious and she rolled her eyes. "You are eating pineapple pizza. Don't come at me." she said really seriously. I leaned in. "You liked it too!" I said pointing at her and she laughed. I got her.

We were sitting behind the school building with some candy and stuff because we got hungry during lunch break but we didn't want to go down with the others. We never did that. We just liked spending time together.. alone. Eating together was one of our favorite things.

I was sitting with wide legs and the food between my legs and she was sitting closely next to me with her legs pulled to herself. She looked so tiny and cute next to me, I loved it.

I put my hand on the ground to support myself and felt that it wasn't cold and flat at all.. it was more like.. squishy, soft and warm.. I looked down and saw her hand under mine.. my jaw dropped. This did not just happen.. again.. although I told her it would not happen. This time it wasn't on purpose.

I looked up at her and she was already looking at our hands. She was just looking at them without moving a bit. It wasn't on purpose but it felt.. so weird. I should've pulled away immediately but I just couldn't. I didn't. I didn't want to.

I could feel my heart beat in my hand and I was sure that she could do that too. I got used to it very very fast.. way too fast..

Last time I did it on purpose without feeling anything and this time I didn't do it in purpose and I felt everything. Why? I didn't want to feel like that.. but I did.. and I couldn't lie to myself anymore.. Why did it get me so nervous?

I slowly pulled my hand away because I didn't want her to think that I was disrespecting the limits that she set and crossing the lines that she drew. I wanted her to know that even if I felt something, that I would never go too far or force her to something, even if I wasn't forcing her directly.

She looked up to my eyes as soon as my hand wasn't on hers anymore and I could see the light in her eyes.. why did I feel that type of way every time she looked at me. I got shivers and goosebumps all over my body.. every damn time..

I opened my mouth to say something but she looked away so it wasn't important anymore. I wanted to apologize but I knew she probably didn't want to hear it and it made me so mad that I made her feel awful again... god, it wasn't even on purpose and I felt like I could wrap my whole arms around her.

Luna

I just wished he would've kept his hand on my mine.. I just wished I could've felt his hand around mine and his fingers in my palm.. I wanted it so much and it hurt so god damn bad when he pulled away..

Maybe I was going to have the confidence to hold his hand one day and to tell him that I would enjoy it if he would do it..

Sun

It took a lot out of me. I was so worn out. He didn't lie.. about nothing.

My ankles, wrists, neck, hips, thighs, lips, boobs and probably even my ass.. everything was purple. Thinking about how he squeezed my thighs so much that I could barely breathe because of the pain made me feel dizzy. I never thought that getting hurt could feel so good and that I could ever want it. He even made me cry a few times.

I was in a lot of pain but I didn't want him to stop.. he got me even more addicted to him.. it was all his fault that I was into some kinky shit and wanted more because I was a child of god before I met him. But he was so experienced and so good, as if he knew exactly which spots on my body made me weak.