Can't hate you || e.d

Broken pieces everywhere

Ethan

It was early in the morning. 6am. She fell asleep on my chest and I was tired as hell but I had to stay awake, in case she would wake up again. Her eyes and cheeks were swollen. Just like her lips. She didn't stop crying at all until she got too tired. I knew it made her feel a lot better because she didn't cry for a really long time. As soon as I was sure that she was sleeping tight enough for me to move, I slowly stood up. I grabbed the empty glass and walked downstairs. In the same moment I heard noises.. someone came..

I saw Moon. I walked towards him very quickly and when he saw me he winced and made a weird noise like he just saw a ghost.

"Didn't you get my messages?" I asked quietly. I was almost whispering. My voice was deep and angry. I was angry. I raised a brow at him. No matter if I always told him about everything, I didn't want him to see his mother like this. They shouldn't see her weak.

"What.. what message? I-.." he asked totally confused and then he checked his pockets. He started panicking and looked around, even at the ground as if he would've just lost his phone right there or just realized that he lost it but the ground was clean as fuck. So clean that it was even reflecting us but he was still looking around.

His hair was messy. I could smell the alcohol on him.. and the hickeys on his neck were so dark that I almost believed that he got hit by somebody.

"Son are you crazy?" I asked and he looked at me eyes wide open. In that moment my jaw dropped.. I furrowed my eyebrows and looked into his eyes very closely. His eyes were red. It wasn't a normal red.. like he cried blood or something..

"What happened to your eyes?" I asked and I could see that he was panicking but he tried to show it off. I knew him too well. I knew everyone in my family too well. "Nothing.." he answered but I could see that his eyes were big. They were huge. He looked so different. Like he was someone else. I raised a brow again. "Where have you been?" I asked. This time my voice was louder and deeper. My blood was boiling.

"I-.." he didn't even continue the sentence. He was breathing heavily as if he was close to get a heart attack. I clenched my jaw.. Even I could feel the adrenaline in his blood and his heartbeat. I took a step towards him. He couldn't even talk.

"Your sister almost broke her nose and you didn't even ask how it happened or how she feels, you're barely at home, you've missed several meetings, you aren't you. What the fuck are you doing? What is happening to you?" I asked in another deep and mad tone.

I watched him for a while and noticed that he was so distracted and busy with everything else than his life and his family. He was someone else and my son wasn't going to be one of these bitch ass teens who were walking around between the blocks with blunts in their hands and cocaine in their noses not knowing what was going on, messing around with their lives and no plans for their future.

He had everything. Everything that he wanted and needed. He was a boss. He couldn't be so stupid to ruin his life. He needed to be careful and realize who he was. I knew exactly what he did and I was going to scream the hell out of him but my baby was sleeping up there and she was exhausted enough. This wasn't going to help her. I wasn't going to risk waking her up and I wasn't going to tell Moon about what happened. He needed to get himself back together. I was going to put him in his place but not yet. I wasn't going to send him out again because I knew he would make it worse but I was going to make sure that he wouldn't be at home either.

"You. You are not going to move your ass anywhere." I said really really seriously, pointing at him and called Josh. "I want to hear your explanation later." I said even more serious before Josh picked up.