Can't hate you || e.d

'Ann'

Moon

I couldn't stop smiling, even when I arrived home. I had this feeling in my chest... or kn my stomach.. that made me smile.. it was such an awkward feeling..

I walked into the living room where Sun was already sitting with her phone in her hand and her earbuds in. She took them off when she saw me and smiled at me. The world seemed so perfect... if everybody would've just smiled.

"You look really happy." she said, still smiling like it would be something special and I knew it was because it's been a while since the last time she saw me smiling like that. I almost forgot what it felt like to smile like this. I realized how much I've missed it.

"Probably because.." I looked down at my hands and lowered my voice a little. "I feel my heart beating again after a very long time.." I continued and she looked at me with a dropped jaw.

Her smile faded but she seemed happy about it. I knew she was happy about it. She didn't even need to say anything. The way she looked at me already gave it away.

I stood up and walked into the kitchen where I saw mom. I walked up to her and kissed her cheek. She smiled and asked me how school was. I gave her the typical answer and when I leaned on the counter my heart dropped to my ass because I saw her neck.

"Wow, what's that?" I asked and she looked at me, totally confused. I pointed at her neck. She opened her mouth to say something but I gasped and my jaw dropped in disappointment.

"EEEWW! MY POOR INNOCENT EYES!" I screamed panicking and looking at her, totally disgusted and confused. She had hickeys on her neck.. that went down to her chest. I felt sick. That was literally scary. She was my mom. I was used to seeing these on younger people like students and friends and stuff but not my MOM. I couldn't get the pictures out of my mind.

"You and innocent? Your eyes and innocent? Doesn't fit." she was shocked too but she couldn't understand how this made me feel. Even imagining killed me and made me dig my own grave to lay there forever until these pictures of them two together were going to leave my head.

"YOU-.. you can't do that! You both.. you are old and married! You have children, woman!" I said shaking my head trying to get the pictures that I didn't even see out of my head. I hated that my brain was working by itself.

"Moon! Don't act like a child! We're not that old and-.." I cut her off because I couldn't listen to her or get to know more about this because I already got goosebumps of cringe. There was no need for details.

I needed to get out there. I rushed back to Sun and sat down again but this time she looked at me totally confused.

Y/n

This was actually the first time Moon got to see something like this on me. Usually I would've made sure to cover them up with makeup but this time I totally forgot it. I felt so embarrassed, although he was my son.

Ethan walked in. He was in the backyard, doing some stuff. He took his jacket and his beanie off and walked to the coffee machine. "How you doin' babe?" he asked and I leaned against the counter and rubbed my eyes.

"You need to be more careful next time! Moon saw them and he's acting like he's dying or something." I pointed at my neck and he started laughing. I gave him a death stare. I was way too serious and he was way too chill.

He just pressured his lips with a smile and walked towards me. He looked at me.. he was so silly. I shook my head, questioning him. He touched my neck and then my hair. He started playing with it... I grabbed his wrists, trying to stop him.