Can't hate you || e.d

Mother

Sun

I was standing between his legs again.. he was leaning his head against my belly again.. holding onto me like his world would be going down and I was the only thing he could hold onto.

I've already seen him cry a few times but it was the first time I saw him like this. He was in so much pain.. shaking so much and tensing his body..

I held onto him.. put my hand on his shoulder.. gently stroke his head.. kissed his head a couple of times.. quietly cried with him.

My heart was bleeding.. none of us expected this.. we thought of everything.. but not of this.. it was unexpected and shocking.. he silently bursted out in tears and got so loud.. he started screaming.. I could barely understand how he felt.. I couldn't even imagine.

I knew I was never going to understand or feel the pain that he felt.. I was never going to understand what he was going through in that moment.. I was never going to understand what he was thinking.. all I knew was that I wanted to be there for him.

I wanted to give him all my love, all my strength, all my support and everything else that I had. I wanted to give him everything.

Dean

I remembered the times in which I couldn't remember her.. when I thought I didn't have a mom... when dad made me forget about her..

And although I couldn't really remember her, I knew exactly that it was her in the pictures. It was her stuff. I could feel it. I was in her belly for nine months.. it was impossible to not feel it.

The connection.. the warm color of her eyes, her hair and her smile.. I just felt it.. it was her.. and it seemed like I remembered everything.. even the time before I knew her..

Moon

"Holy piss. I already ate crème brûlée in so many restaurants, like you can't even imagine, but this.. this is literally the best one yet!" I said, looking right into her eyes, still feeling the goosebumps that I got all over my body from the amazing taste that was just too unique.

We were sitting at an amazing place. It was so unbelievably awesome that I was asking myself from where she knew these places.

We were sitting on a very very high place. It was hard to explain. It was literally a cliff but it wasn't dangerous. We could look down at the city.

It wasn't dark yet. It was beautiful. It was extremely cold but it was fucking amazing. We had a small picnic with blankets, crème brûlée and an amazing view. It was enough. It was more than enough. Just looking at her and having conversations with her was enough..

I never realized that I never needed more than just a good friend who was also my everything. I was admiring her and how uncomplicated she was. I enjoyed being with her.

And to be honest who would do something like this these days? Who would make something delicious like this and bring you to a place like this? Which girl would do that? Which girl would put all her love into something like that and be so pure? One who was really caring and fighting...

"That's a secret. I really like backing and cooking stuff." she said, proudly swinging her spoon. She even brought spoons and napkins and something to drink. She didn't forget anything.

I looked at her with raised eyebrows. "Hmh? Really? I can already see you in a nice bakery or something like that! I'll come and eat something every morning before I go to work until I get fat and you don't want me anymore." I said and she laughed.