Can't hate you || e.d

Endgame

Grayson

Finding him was really easy. I knew him too well. I knew where he chose to be. I knew his car would stand out. It was easier than I thought because I actually thought it would take me hours. Actually tracking his car would've been enough but I didn't want it to be too easy..

That was the bad side of being extra.. you could get recognized very very fast..

Sun

My head was aching.. just like my whole body.. I opened my eyes and saw my lap.. so I lifted my head up but my neck was aching so extremely that I had to groan. The light was blending me extremely so I blinked a few times to get used to it. I had no clue where I was or why my ankles and wrists were hurting so much. My throat was aching as well.. and soon I realized that I was tied onto a chair and that some duct tape was covering my mouth.. I started panicking and wanted to look around but as soon as I looked right in front of me, i saw mom..

My heart stopped. She was in the same situation as me. Tied. She was crying and trying to scream... I tried it as well but it didn't work.. only very weird noises come out.

I had no clue what she was doing there. What I was doing there.. but it was obvious that he got her too.. I was so surprised to see her but knowing that she was there made me feel relieved.. although she couldn't do much. I couldn't even touch her, hug her to feel better.. I couldn't do anything.

Y/n

She looked at me eyes wide open and freaked out. She was panicking and seeing her like that hurt really really bad. I was crying as well.. I wanted to hug her so bad.. so goddamn bad. I wanted to comfort her. I was there but I couldn't do anything. If Ethan wasn't going to find us, I was going to kill him.. she was so close, right in front of me but far at the same time.

Sun

I wanted to die.. it felt like everything fell apart.. mom and I got kidnapped, we were in the hands of some psychopath who planned this for way too long to make t go wrong, dad and Moon were trying to find us, we were alone with that creep and I wasn't sure if Dean was alive or not.

I hated myself so much..

Even the thought of it made me freak out. It made me panic. Thinking of how he was laying there.. with blood on the ground.. how he didn't move.. how he just looked at me in pain.. I regretted everything.. everything I said. Everything I did.

I told him that I didn't want to have anything to do with him anymore.. that he is a freak. I was mean to him.. it wasn't his fault. I overacted but I'm a human too and finding out about this all was too much for me. But he didn't deserve this. I promised him that I would never leave him alone but I did. I broke my promise and hurt him. My heart was aching and I wanted to go back to him.. I wanted to be there for him.. I needed to see him.

I wanted to go back in time and change things.. make things differently.. I wished I could tell him how much I love him and that he was the best gift ever... that I was glad that he was born to love me and how sorry I am for saying all these things and not believing him.. He was right with everything. It wasn't his fault. He only wanted to protect me. His only ambition on this world was loving me and he did that only for him and me.. not for his dad..

He went through so much shit and instead of listening to him and being calm, I said all these things to him. His mother died right in front of his eyes when he was so young... of course he was struggling.. and I made it worse. I only wanted him to hold me and make me feel safe like always. I wanted to hug him, kiss him and tell him that I would love him no matter what.