Can't hate you || e.d

Bad boys

Sun

After school I was literally running back home because I was so nervous and excited at the same time.

I couldn't understand how he was capable of making me feel like this. Nobody should have the power to make me feel like this or get me this excited. He wasn't the first boy I gave my number to. Maybe it was because he made is too simple. He didn't flirt, he didn't use a stupid pick-up line or anything else and I kinda liked that he came straight to the point.

I wasn't planning to give him my number so quickly because I never thought he would just ask me on the first day. I never thought he was going to ask me at all. I was so surprised and asked myself when he was going to text me. I really wanted him to text me.. but at the same time I was a little afraid of him.

As soon as I arrived home I rushed upstairs.

"Sun?" I heard mom screaming so I screamed back. "I'm busy, mom!"

I closed the door and tried to control my heartbeat but that was pretty impossible. I was breathing so fast and still shaking. I wanted to scream. Maybe I was this excited because he was the first boy who was this handsome, hot, confident and interesting and interested in me. That was for real the first time I felt that way and I really liked it but it scared me.. he scared me.

I knew that he was no good. What if he was just playing? Just playing? We didn't even have a real conversation. There was nothing. But hat if he wanted to play? What if he was planning it? What if he had a girlfriend? Someone like him just needed to have a girlfriend.

Damn I was already paranoid, tripping and jumping not conclusions. I really needed to keep calm.

But he was a really dangerous and scary guy while I was innocent and boring. Maybe I wasn't his type and was already getting myself into it too fast. I never did something cool, adventurous, dangerous or criminal. I wasn't a savage or a 'bad bitch' who people could have fun with or enjoy spending time with. I wasn't funny or great at all, I didn't even know why I was so popular. He was never going to like me.

Every girl was dreaming of a bad guy.. someone who was hot and seductive. He was that kind of guy and I was sure that he wanted a badass who would look good on his side and play all his games..

I went back downstairs after getting myself back together and changing into some comfortable clothes. Mom was sitting on the sofa, writing her new book. So I slowly walked towards her. I didn't want to bother her but I wanted to talk to her. "Mom?" I asked quietly. She looked at me. "Sun! What happened earlier? You seemed very stressed." she said and waved me over to take a seat next to her.

I shook my head and slowly sat down next to her. How could I ask her anything without making it obvious or letting her know? It would be very dumb to tell her about it because there was nothing going on yet. So I asked "Uhm.. do you have some time?". She put her pen away. "Of course!" she answered and turned to me totally curious. I took a deep breath.

"I wanted to ask you something.." my chin was shaking a little. She held my hand and I swallowed. "How.. how did you fall in love with dad?" I asked. I never asked her this before because I never really thought of it. It's not like I didn't care about it. I just never got to ask it.

She looked at me eyes widened like she didn't expect me to ask her this or like she's been waiting her entire life for me to ask this and so she started laughing.

"Your dad and I.. that's a really interesting story." she smiled and leaned back. I crawled myself next to her and started listening silently. I could see how happy the thought of them made her and that made me really happy.. I loved seeing how much they meant to each other.. listening to her soft words that were filled with love made me feel so calm and comfortable.