Can't hate you || e.d

Unlucky child

Sun

I told him what happened and how much it all annoyed me.

The first thing he said was "Okay fuck that your dad doesn't like me.. I already get that.. but are you trying to kill me? Like seriously? Wanna make him kill me because I want to make babies with his daughter? I think the fuck not."

He sounded a little angry, or more like he was panicking. I knew how important it was for him and that we were going to work on it. I also knew that he was still pissed because of what happened in school. I needed to make him calm down and take his bad thoughts away.

"But don't you think our babies wouldn't be cute? Big blue eyes and blonde hair.. Tattoo and cotton candy lovers.." I said teasing him a little bit but he didn't say anything for a couple of seconds..

"Of course it's way too early. We're just imagining so no need to panic or rush things." I said so he wouldn't start to panic or think that I wanted him to get me pregnant or something.

He took a deep breath and said "They would be the cutest babies on earth..." and I could hear his smile.

We were way too young for things like these but I wanted him to be happy with the thought of it.

"I thought you don't like kids.." I said remembering what he told me one day. "It's complicated.. it's not that I hate them.. it's probably that scared for them and prefer to be distant with them. But I would love my babies more than anything else.. I would love them like crazy.." he said and his voice was so soft that I thought I was going to melt.. I wanted to hug him. "You're cute.. they don't even exist yet." I said laughing and he just said "Doesn't matter. I already love them."

I fell in love with him once again.

He managed to make me soft and smile even after an argument with my dad and realized how relieved I felt, knowing that he was there. The past three months felt really really hard for me.. but now that I was with him again..

"Dean I love you.." I said with a big smile on my face. He was always making me smile. losing another second.. another second that I would miss..

"I love you too Sun.." he said and I closed my eyes.. I loved hearing these words from him. They sounded different with his voice and from his lips..

Y/n

"Y/n, let me go, I don't want to hurt you." he said breathing heavily while I was holding onto his arms although my hands where way smaller than his huge arms but he was still trying to be gentle. He was acting calm but I knew what was going on in his way too big head

"What are you going to do, huh? Stay here and calm down!" I said although was a little angry as well. What she said was something that she definitely shouldn't have said to her dad. Especially not to THAT dad.

I couldn't finally understand him after all that happened.. all the time I thought it would be unfair that he was be so bossy and strict but after the things he said earlier I realized how right he was. Not with everything but with a lot. Of course I wanted her to have fun and be in love and all that stuff that every teen goes through.. but it depended on who she was doing it with.

What we went through was not easy and I believed that he wasn't in the right state of mind to take care of her. I was afraid for both of them. They needed help. That's why we couldn't leave them alone.

I knew very well that guys like him were able to do anything with girls Ike her. I knew how blind you can be when you love somebody. She was blind. She couldn't see anybody else than him.. not even her family. She couldn't trust him with everything or rely on him. It wasn't that easy.