Can't hate you || e.d

Leave with granny

Sun

We went back home with Dean. Three days were enough for now. I didn't want to get used to living with him only to go back home again. I needed to face my fears and go back home. I needed to get over what happened and get myself back together. I wasn't weak.. if Moon handles this whole gang shit.. I could do it too.

We walked in and I heard grandmas laugh. I looked up at Dean and smiled. He smiled back.

We walked in and as soon as she saw us she sighed as if she missed me and got emotional. The way she looked at me showed me that she already knew about everything. I didn't know how I should feel about it but I tried to not think about it. I tried to act like it didn't happen.

"My lovely lovely sweethearts!" she said and hugged me tightly. I loved the way she smelled. It made me feel very comfortable. Then she hugged Dean and we sat down.

"How do you feel?" she asked and I knew why she was asking me that. I took a deep breath and kissed. "I'm okay." I answered and she turned to Dean.

"I heard what you did and I am proud of you. I wish you would've hit him for me too. If I would've been there I definitely would've helped you." she said, totally amazed but I could see that he was feeling uncomfortable about it.

I knew he didn't like that side of him because it reminded him of his dad and he was scared of it but I was proud of him too. He was strong. I wasn't scared of him. I held his hand and squeezed it tightly to make him feel comfortable again.

"You both came in the right moment." she said and leaned in a little. She seemed really happy and excited. I was curious about what she was going to tell us..

"I thought of something.. I don't know if you are going to like this idea.. but I know it's what you need." she continued and I got even more curious. "I thought it would be nice.. if you would come with me.. to Monte Carlo." she said and my jaw dropped.

I was really confused.. it was a little too much after all that happened and I didn't know how to react. I didn't know what she meant. What she exactly meant because it was obvious that it wasn't only that.

"You could stay with me for a few weeks. Or months. Or forever if you'll like it there." she explained and my heart stopped. I looked at Dean. He looked as shocked as me. He looked like his heart dropped to his ass just like it was with me. I could see that he was panicking.

Why did she want to do that? Why did she want to take me with her. Where did that idea come from? I was totally confused and overwhelmed.

I didn't even know well enough to leave somewhere with her. We were already really close but I didn't know if I could live with her.. especially for so long.

"Grandma I-.." I started. Then I looked at Dean and back at her. "I can't do that. I can't leave. I would never leave Dean. Where is that idea coming from?" I asked.

I couldn't say that I didn't like that idea. I knew how amazing Monte Carlo was and I was already dying to go there but not like this. I didn't think it would be like this. It went way too fast.

"Who said you have to leave Dean? He can come with us if he wants to." she said and I couldn't say anything.

"Unfortunately I have to leave soon. I can't stay any longer and I'm not used to this cold. I didn't get enough of my granddaughter yet and I've seen how grey it here is. You need some color in your life and new people. This here.. is dangerous for you. It's depressing.." she added and she sounded really serious and upset. I could literally feel what she felt. The way she looked at me and her voice.. it must've been really important to her... and she was right.