Can't hate you || e.d

A baby

Y/n

Our honeymoon was so beautiful that I wanted it to go on forever.. We had so much fun and laughed a lot. It was the perfect time to stay away from everything and just be nobody. He wasn't a gang leader and I wasn't the girl who ran away from her mother. Everything that I was scared of disappeared as soon as he said 'I do'. Everything was even better than I imagined.

We drove around, visited cool places, made love, took pictures together and laughed at messaged that Charlie and Josh sent us. Of course we also kept arguing. That was one thing that was never going to stop and I actually didn't want it to stop because that's what made us to what we were..

"I want a son!" he said totally serious and pissed. We were sitting on the table on the balcony of our hotel, talking about having kids and or future and other things and he wanted a son instead of a daughter... I sighed because I wanted a daughter.. I mean if I was going to give birth then to a little babygirl.

"But a daughter would be so much cuter!" I said and I crossed my arms in front of my chest. "Cute? Just imagine a little baby boy Ethan walking around! That is cute!" he said and I had to laugh at what he said.

It was probably too early to talk about kids but we wanted it a lot.. especially after we thought that I was pregnant. A baby would've made everything even more beautiful than it already was. We knew what a huge change and responsibility it was going to be but we were ready for it.. I was ready to be a mom and he was dying to be a dad.

"What about a little baby y/n?" I asked with puppy eyes and a smile.
"No! Girls are complicated!" he said and my smile faded. He was so mean. "What are you going to do with a son, huh?" I asked leaning in. He raised a brow at me.
"What kind of question is this? I'll raise him with respect and he'll be a part of my gang and take over my place one day!" he said totally feeling it.

My jaw dropped. "WHAT? NO!" I said loudly. I couldn't believe my ears.. he just wanted it because of this honor thing. He clenched his jaw.

"Yes he is!" he said loudly as well. "Do you know how cool it's going to be? We'll play football, I'll teach him how to shoot, he'll have my genes and be handsome as fuck. Imagine how it'll sound.. 'Moon Dolan, the son of Ethan Dolan.', damn this is powerful." he looked at the sky daydreaming about his nonexistent son.

I had a lots of questions. "Wait.. first of all.. you really want to name our son 'Moon'?" I asked him amazed. If he was serious then I was going to love him even more.
He nodded and smirked... I just melted.. but freaked out then.

"And he's my son too! Remember that I'm a Dolan too!" I said and he laughed and smiled at me. Then he bent over to me and kissed my neck.. "Of course you're a Dolan." he said with a husky voice. I bit my lip. It sounded so wonderful and pleasing I was ready to melt.
"But that doesn't mean that he'll be a part of your gang." I said and he backed off immediately. "HE IS!" I sighed.

"I want him to be a normal kid! No danger!" I said seriously. He gave me a death stare. "He's not going to be a pussy who'll be afraid of the older kids in school or bullies or other shit! He'll be a strong man who knows to respect older people, women, his teachers and be successful in life and be pleased with himself!"
I tried to hide my smile. That was cute.

"But just think about a girl! Little dresses, walking around in mamas shoes, loving her dad more than anyone.." I said smiling again. I tried to convince him but he was still angry. "Yeah and then she's going to grow up, fall in love, wear shorts and crop tops where every boy can see her belly, I'll get angry, she'll hate me, she'll have a boyfriend, he'll be a fuckboy but she won't be able to live without him, she'll call him 'daddy' just like you call me 'daddy', then they'll fuc-. AAAHH" he screamed and I laughed.

"What kind of fantasy is that? You wrote her story before she could even try to exist." I said while he was still freaking out. Actually it was cute how he was already breaking his head over it.. "No, no, no, no, no! I'll never let someone touch my nonexistent Sun!" he said and began to breathe faster in panic. I came closer and wrapped my arms around him.. "You don't need to worry about these things! We have so much time!" I said and he put his hands on my waist and leaned his forehead against mine.

"I know.. I just want to make sure that I do everything right.. and I need you for that."

I kissed his nose.

"Remember that I'm yours now? We'll have awesome kids... no matter if girl or boy."

He hugged me and buried his face in my neck.
"I want a baby.." he murmured and made me smile. Then I slowly pushed him away. He was a little emotional. "Wait.. YOU want a baby?" I asked him holding onto his arms.
He nodded. "Uh-huh.." I chuckled.

"I just... I want it so bad like I can't wait! I don't know where this baby fever comes from but it doesn't matter if now or later because you will be mine forever!" he said looking deep into my eyes.. I got goosebumps.
"I don't care about that we just got married.. I'll love you forever and it's never too early.. I know that our love is strong enough." he was really serious. I smiled. "I want a baby too.." I said and he looked at me very happily. "Let's make one.." he said and I bit my lip but had to laugh.

He stood up and before I could understand what he was doing he grabbed me and carried me on his arms to the bed. I tased because I didn't expect him to hurry so much.

"I didn't choke you in a while.." he whispered. His voice was so rough and deep. He was already in the mood and the excitement grew.
He laid me onto the bed and put his shirt off. He got on top of me and started kissing my neck. I chuckled but not for too long because then he grabbed my neck. I smiled and let him be in charge.
"Keep calling me daddy, babygirl.." he said and his grip tightened.

Ethan

Just one month after our honeymoon.. everything was perfect. Like our marriage was amazing... nothing changed at all. We were still silly and childish sometimes and I loved her more and more everyday.

One day she came out of the bathroom while I was putting my shirt on. She was wearing one of my sweaters with nothing else beneath like always. She seemed a little nervous.. the way she was holding onto the end of the sweatshirt made me worry a little bit.. she looked so cute like a little child with soft pink cheeks who was afraid of telling me something.

Then she started smiling and I noticed how her eyes were shining. That made me curious.

"What?" I asked smirking.
She took a deep breath.

"I'm pregnant.." she said.

My jaw dropped.. I froze and so did everything else around me.
"You.. are.." I could see the tears in her eyes.. she covered her mouth with her hand. I didn't know if she was afraid of my reaction or just happy.. but it was obviously that these were tears of joy and I could feel them coming in my eyes too.

She was still so small in my eyes... and she was pregnant.
I walked towards her.. with shaking hands. She was shaking as well and a tear rolled down her cheek when I cupped her face. I will never be able to explain what I was feeling in that moment.

"You are pregnant?" I asked with a shaking voice really quietly. She nodded with an unexplainable smiling. I picked her up and spun her around. She screamed and started laughing. The love I was feeling towards her was really not normal.. my family was starting to grow inside of her stomach and I was going to protect her with my own life but she was never going to be alone. I was never going to leave her alone.

"We're going to be a little family.." she said wrapping her arms around my neck.

I kissed her and that's how the real struggles began

Season finale

To be continued..