Can't hate you || e.d

Impressions

Sun

The week was finally over and I could finally go back to school. It felt like years have passed, but in the end, I was finally able to see Dean again... We even went out to eat ice cream and walk around in the mall after the day dad and I argued. I had so much fun and I was happier than ever. That was probably the best week in my entire life and I couldn't stop smiling like a fool. It was so easy and so chill that it almost felt unreal and I was so afraid all the time that something could go wrong.

Dad and I didn't talk a word. Well as long as we didn't have to. It went like this:

"When is the game?"

"In a week"

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"Could you reach me the knife"

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"What time is it?"

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"I'm leaving."

"Take care."

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Nothing too deep. Nothing that should make us spend too much time together or talk for too long or look at each other. He said what he had to say and so did I. It was the easiest and best for everyone.

Moon was the only one who I was talking to like always. Nothing changed between us and he was the only one besides Dean who was there for me. I loved Moon so much. He was the darkness and I was the light. I didn't know what I would've done without him. He meant too much to me and I was thankful for his existence.

We weren't talking about Dean. Neither with Moon nor with dad or mom. I knew he wasn't accepting him at all, but at least he didn't say a word when we went out together. I wasn't sure why he was doing that. I didn't want to know it. Probably because he knew he was going to lose me or because he was planning something. Maybe he was just sad or he gave up. I wasn't sure but I didn't care anymore at all.

I could only concentrate on the game today and I knew he was going to come again. I didn't care about that anymore either. He was only coming because he felt guilty and he wanted to show how much he loved me, but it was already too late because nothing mattered after the storm.

I was going to act like it would be a normal game. The only difference was that our enemies were really strong. That was all I was worried about but I knew that our team was great and Dean would knock them all out. He was really good for someone who just joined the team.

I was really glad that our principal and coach didn't cut me out after what happened last week. I thought they wouldn't let me perform but they thankfully did after I promised that something like that would never happen again. We had to save our image. So I kept it on the low.

"Well, you should've turned your phone on!", Chloe said with her arms crossed in front of her chest while I was tying my shoes. We were getting ready to walk out on the field and she had my permission to get into our changing room.

I shut my phone off completely after I left home. I only turned it on when I came back home so I could text Dean, but after that, I was barely using it because I got so many messages from friends and other people who asked if I was okay or who just wanted to talk about what happened and I really couldn't stand that.

"I was worried about you!", she added and I fixed my ponytail. I didn't tell her about what happened between dad an I. I never told anybody about what was going on at home. It was nobody's business. Except Dean's.

"I'm sorry. But you see me. I'm here. I'm fine. I just didn't want to see or get reminded of anything that was related to school.", I said and stood up. She bit her inner cheek. "I have to go now but we'll talk about this later. If you want you can come over after school so we can hang around and talk.", I said and smiled softly. She nodded and smiled back.