Can't hate you || e.d

Charm

Dean

She was laying on my chest with her head, drawing random non existent lines on my abs with her beautiful fingers.. I could feel her smile. I played with her long, blonde hair that was still as wet as mine.

She gave this all a completely different feeling. She made me feel different.. Suddenly it wasn't only about lust and pleasure anymore.. it was about passion, love, care and feelings.. it wasn't meaningless or just for fun.. it was so much more than that. It was everything. She was everything. Feeling her hair in my hand and her skin on mine was making me really calm.

I fucked many girls.. none of them made my body burn like this. I didn't see the universe in their eyes.. in none of them. I never cared about them. I never met them more than once.. and I never felt like this..

I didn't even do this with her because of my own needs or for dad .. I really wanted it and I loved it.

It was disturbing.. bothering me.. maybe I was afraid of falling in love. I couldn't believe that it could happen that fast. Especially not to me. I've never been in love. I didn't even know what it felt like or what it meant. I couldn't be in love. Even the word was so irrelevant and overrated. People were always saying it to each other without even meaning it. It was temporary and only for weak people. Like my dad. I got angry when I thought of him and it wasn't the right time to get angry so I decided to concentrate on the girl that was laying on my chest. I didn't want to destroy this peaceful moment..

She wrapped her arms around me and chuckled. Even if she was so cute that I almost melted, I needed to resist... no feelings were allowed. The only problem was that I couldn't stop it...

In the first second I wanted to die, break her heart and hurt everyone around me.. in the second she smiled and in the third I felt comfortable because she was around me and somehow she made me smile too..

To be honest I wasn't sure if dad was going to be pissed because we had sex but I didn't really care about it because he wasn't going to find out about it. I sighed because I wasted my thoughts on him again. She looked up at me. Her eyes were sparkling just like she was filled with glitter and that glitter was about to pop out of her eyes. I smiled to comfort her and let her know that everything was alright. Just when she wanted to say something, her phone started to ring.

Sun

I bent over him to get my phone and he grabbed my butt. That made me laugh.

When I saw that it was mom, I got a little heart attack. I totally forgot about her.. I texted her on the way here so she wouldn't have to worry but then I forgot about her.. completely. If she would've known what I've just done.. she would've locked me into a room three hundred feet deep in Alaska. She probably would've been upset or regretted that she let me see him. But she was never going to find out about this all.

I answered her call.

"Yes mom?" I asked and he smirked.. he made my head spin.

"Your das is coming back in a hour so you better come back now." she said and I sighed because I didn't wanted to leave him but I was also thankful because she gave me so much time with him. I was going to kiss her for this later because without her none of this would've happened and it was the most beautiful night of my entire life and it was always going to be..

I smiled. "Okay. See you at home." I said and hung up. I put my phone away and looked at him.. Then I opened my arms and screamed of happiness. I threw myself on him and he laughed. "If I would've known that this would make you so happy I would've done it earlier." he said wrapping his arms around me and I blushed because he wanted to make me happy. He was so cute without even trying or wanting it.