Can't hate you || e.d

Pain

Y/n

I could see that Charlie was already waiting for me on the front door. I called her on the way to ask her if I could come and she said her parents wouldn't be home because they were on a business trip. They had a perfect timing.

I got off my car with shaking hands and she opened her arms already assuming what was going to happen and what happened.. I hugged her and I couldn't stop crying like a little baby while she wrapped her arms around me so carefully and lovely... I was a baby. A baby that lost its candy.. my candy was sweet from the outside and sour from the inside...

"It's okay... cry.." I heard her saying.
"HE BROKE UP WITH ME!" I felt so weak in her arms.. after realizing how long I've been fighting.. it all fell apart.. I felt like I couldn't breath again.
"Come in!" she said and helped me walking in. I sat down on the couch of her living room while she disappeared in the kitchen to get me some water. I looked down at my hands.. at my sleeves... they were ruined with my mascara... but then I realized it was his sweater.. I screamed. I felt my heart aching.

Charlie

I heard her scream so I ran with the cups of warm milk in my hand to her. I knew water wouldn't help her. She was that warm milk kind of girl. When I put the cups onto the table I saw that she was on the ground crying and holding her chest. I was afraid she would have a panic attack or a hear attack.. I've never seen her like that.. I've never seen her cry like that.. I bent down to her and wanted to help her up but she just laid down on the carpet. Seeing her like this broke my heart. She was my best friend and it didn't matter that she chose another life away from me. I supported her with every decision and she seemed so happy.. I was glad that she found her happiness.. but now I wanted to kill him.. breaking up with her and leaving her like this.. as a mess... what a son of a bitch..

"Y/n please.. calm down.. don't let yourself down."

I could see that she was struggling to breathe..
"I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT HIM!" she started hitting the floor so hard I thought she would break her hands. My poor baby...

"HE DOESN'T LOVE ME ANYMORE!" she screamed and I wished I could do something for her.
"I..I don't feel good I.." she covered her mouth with her hand. I knew she was going to throw up so I put her arm around her shoulder and carried her to the bathroom. She threw up and I held her hair back. She was shaking when I helped her to wash her face. She seemed traumatized.

I helped her to lay down on my bed.. tears kept rolling down her cheeks..

"Could you... could you help me to take this sweater off?" she asked me with a husky voice. She wasn't sobbing anymore but the pain in her eyes was obvious. I helped her to take it off and handed her a new one of mine.

She just played there and I looked at her trying to not seem like I would sympathize or anything. "Are you going to tell me what happened?" I asked and held her hand.. she licked her plump, swollen lips. "I thought.. this between us was something big.. I trusted him... I leaned on him knowing he would never leave me alone.." it was difficult to hear her light broken voice.. but I let her talk.

"I never loved anyone that much.. I never thought he would do that to me. I really trusted him. Everything seemed perfect.. but it wasn't.. because he betrayed me just like Matt did it.."

My jaw dropped and my blood started boiling. "He cheated on you? I asked and she started sobbing quietly again. I wiped her tears with my thumbs away. "Charlie why am I not good enough?" she asked and my heart broke into a million pieces.. no girl should ask herself this question. No girl should feel like this.. "Why does nobody love me? What am I doing wrong?"