Can't hate you || e.d

Creeping

Sun

My head felt really heavy when I woke up on the next day. I've never felt more tired and broken.. I wanted to disappearing my bed. I didn't want Dean to be the first person I had to think of. But I couldn't change it. He was like an arrow that hit me as soon as I woke up.

I wanted to sat up but I heard noises.. that meant I wasn't alone.. I thought it was Moon who was keeping an eye out on me. I turned my head around and looked where it was coming from. My vision was blurry but as soon as I recognized Deans silhouette, I screamed and jumped up as if a lightning hit me. He was putting some of my clothes into a back. My heart started racing and I started breathing heavily.. I almost got a heart attack.

"Good Morning babygirl." he said not even turning around to me. I felt like I landed in a parallel universe. He was here.. acting like nothing happened. Calling me 'babygirl' as if he had the right to.. what did he want to do with my stuff? I knew very well that Moon didn't let him in. I knew very well that nobody knew that he was there. I only needed to scream. "What.. What are you doing here and how the hell did you come in?" I asked him trying to catch my breath with my shaking voice. He turned around to me.

First I thought it was a dream. I took a step towards him... he was real. This all was real, no matter how unreal it seemed. He acted like what he was doing was normal.

"Are you crazy?" I asked him when I was already too close. "Yes." he answered and made my jaw drop. This was too much. I just woke up after a long night and this was way too much. This definitely had to be a dream. A stupid dream. "Now put your clothes on so we can go." he handed me an outfit. Some ripped jeans, a white shirt and white converse. Did I miss a day or anything else?

He turned back around to put my lingerie in there as well. I blushed but my blood started boiling. He couldn't just touch my personal stuff like that. I looked at him eyes wide open. "What the hell are you doing?" I asked again and suddenly he turned around. I didn't know why but I flinched. "Could you please stop asking me questions?' he asked back like what he was doing didn't require any questions. He was in a rush.

"Uhm no?! Not when you're standing in my room, after everything that happened?! What do you think you are doing? Give me my stuff back and leave me alone. I need to get ready for school." I was still holding the outfit still in my hands but crossed my arms in front of my chest. "Fuck school there's no time for school." he said and closed the bag.

Then he looked down at me and furrowed his eyebrows. He approached me and I took a step back. "Sun, either you'll put these on or I'll kidnap you in these 'dick me down' shorts!" he said pointing at the clothes in my hands. "Kidnap me?" I've never been more confused. He sighed. "If you won't do it. I will." he was avoiding my questions all the time. That didn't help me. I had so many questions and I wanted to slap him because he just couldn't understand it. What was he up to?

He ripped the clothes out of my hands and threw them on my bed. Suddenly he came closer and I raised a brow. I started panicking a little bit. Why was he acting like that..? He came close.. too close and my heart started beating faster because I hated how my body started burning with his scent and his look.. I needed to hate him.. but I couldn't stop him from getting closer.

He grabbed my waist and picked me up to lay me down on my bed as if I couldn't do it by myself. I could barely move.. I was too confused.. I couldn't understand anything. He took my top off. I had to raise my arms to help him. I didn't even know why I did that. It happened automatically. I needed to stop him but I couldn't. He needed to tell me what was going on.

I tried to cover my upper body as good as I could but he smirked when he grabbed the white shirt. "There's nothing I haven't seen before." he winked and I blushed so hard that my body started burning again.. the thought of our first night gave me goosebumps and pain at the same time..