Can't hate you || e.d

Mother and daughter

Sun

After a few hours we finally arrived at a hotel. At a really huge and luxurious hotel.. The ride was very silent. I hoped so bad that he would talk but he didn't. He didn't let my hand go until we arrived. Somehow that comforted me although I was scared about what was going to happen. It shouldn't be comforting me but I couldn't change it because we were somewhere and he was there..

While he was checking in, I was looking around.. walking around in the lobby.. it was a very beautiful hotel.. but so far away from home.. I've never felt more weird and uncomfortable. What was I doing here?

I looked at him. He turned around as if he felt my eyes on him and smiled.. I hated how it made me feel better. Maybe because he was the only person I knew here. Maybe because I still trusted him somehow. I just hoped that I was in good hands and maybe he was really going to take care of me in the right way.. I smiled back..

During the ride I realized that I forgot my phone at home. I wanted to text Moon for help but when I realized that I forgot it, I also forgot how to breathe but needed to show it off. I wanted to believe that he wasn't going to hurt me.. but after everything that happened, I wasn't really sure anymore.. I hated being this anxious.

He walked towards me with a card in his hand while a man was taking our bags up to our room. I didn't say a word. I've never been so silent and uncomfortable. Why was his appearance comforting me? We followed the guy and when we walked in I forgot how to breathe again because the suit was really stunning. I've never seen such a beautiful room.. The bed looked so comfortable I felt how it wanted me to sleep on it but there was no time for that. After the man handed us our bags and left, Dean locked the door while I was standing in the middle of the room and tried my best to not have a panic attack.

He turned around to me and smiled. I bit my lower lip and hoped that he was finally going to explain everything. I wasn't sure what he was going to do.. what he was planning or why we were in this beautiful hotel suit.. but I was going to find it out. When he walked towards me I realized that I needed to say something.

"I forgot my phone..." I didn't know if it was clever to tell him that because it probably made everything easier for him.. but it was at least something.. "You won't need it anyway. Look.." he said and walked towards the big window. He turned his phone off and threw it out of the window. My jaw dropped. He did it so easily without hesitation that it made me worry even more.

I couldn't even look at him. This all felt really weird.. he approached me and my heart started racing again.. he placed his hands on my waist and pulled me closer. I wanted to stop him.. I needed him to explain first.. but I couldn't stop him. I couldn't stop feeling this type of way when he touched me. He buried his face in my neck and sniffed me in as if he missed me.. I felt the tears in my eyes.. this whole situation was overwhelming.

"I don't want anyone to find us for a while.." I was so small in his arms.. his soft voice made this all seem less worse. "But they are going to try to find me.." my voice was still shaking.. his grip tightened. "Don't worry about that babygirl..".

I remembered everything that happened. The way he looked at me.. how the glass shattered.. how he screamed at me and disappeared. How angry he was when he saw Blake and me.. how he looked away when he told me about the girl.. and how he looked at me when he told me that he loved me.. I heard that for the very first time from a boy. a few guys already wanted to date me but none of them were so serious..

I slowly wrapped my arms around him...

After a long silence of hugging I finally asked him "Are you going to talk to me now..?". I was almost whispering.. he backed off, and looked into my eyes.