Can't hate you || e.d

Bad daddy

Sun

I was so close to walking down there in sweatpants and a hoodie, but I couldn't do that to Moon, so I forced myself into a white short dress that was simple but fine at the same time with some nice heels that didn't make me look overdressed.

I walked downstairs, so I could greet them on the door as well, just as I should. I wasn't going to upset Moon. I knew he needed me and since he's always been there for me, I needed to have his back as well. Especially because he asked me to.

I saw how dad was fixing Moon's collar. They both were wearing white shirts and mom was wearing a beautiful dress that was fitting her perfectly. I knew it was something serious but not that it was THIS serious.

My face was completely swollen so I tried my best to make it look okay with makeup. I was hurt as well. I knew what I said hurt dad too, but I couldn't care about that, just like he wasn't caring about my feelings. I was too broken to do that. For the first time, I actually told him about a part that I've been hiding for so long.. it was only 5% of 100.

They looked at me but I didn't look at them. Thankfully the doorbell rang at that moment. It saved the awkward situation and silence. Sam went to open the door, so I just stopped next to Moon. I didn't say a word. They entered and I put a fake smile on. Skylar looked amazing. I could see how nervous she was. Just like Moon. His leg was shaking. I had to smile when I saw that, but I trusted him. I knew he was going to do great and that they were going to be happy together.

Moon

Her parents seemed really educated and cultured. I was amazed and I loved to watch our mothers talk about books and literature. Her mom's blonde hair that was tied up and shining and the glasses of her screamed 'I have a huge library full of literature books in my house and I love watching documentaries or spending time with my daughter.'

Skylar was really beautiful. She was making my heart go faster. Her black dress looked incredibly amazing on her. She was making me nervous. It was so warm, I thought I was going to burn. She looked at me and everything froze for a second. I loved her eyes so much and the way she looked at me. Nothing else except her mattered.

I barely noticed how they started to introduce and get to know each other. I joined them and I was so fucking nervous, I almost lost it. She was nervous as well, but she was calmer than me. She was good at showing it off.

First, we sat down in the living room to talk a little bit and get to know each other more. I was so proud of mom and Sam because they've done such a great job with everything although today wasn't the best day. Everything was perfect. First impressions mattered, so I needed to give my best.. my heart was racing like crazy, but I knew that my parents were doing everything right.. just like Sun. I looked at her and she looked at me. I winked at her and she smiled. I was thankful that she joined us. I thought she wasn't going to, but deep inside, I knew my sister was never going to let me down.

Sun

I felt someone's eyes on me.. when I turned around and looked at dad, I saw how he was looking straight into my eyes, but I look away immediately. So fast that it was almost obvious. I didn't want to look at him. I didn't want him to look at me. My heart started racing and I felt awful. I felt even worse than before. I wanted him to leave me alone. I didn't want to see him.. or mom. I wanted to be alone.

Dean called me almost ten times, but I didn't answer any of his calls. Although he was the only one who always understood me and who I always talked to no matter what happened, I just didn't want to talk. I wanted to shut down and be alone with the voices in my head.. I wasn't mad at him. I only wanted to stop for now.