Can't hate you || e.d

Tears of effort

Y/n

The next months were beyond stressful... Charlie and I went to at least a hundred stores and I tried so many dresses that my bones were already hurting but I couldn't find the perfect one. None of those that I tried pleased me in any way and I wanted everything to be perfect because I was going to be get married only once in my life and it had to be perfect for us both.

I tried my best to hide it from Ethan because he was already busy enough with with all the other preparations. It was harder than we thought and I was literally on the edge but it was okay because I knew what and who I was doing this for. After this exhausting time we were going to start a new chapter of our life and it was going to be wonderful.

Ethan

I never showed y/n how exhausted I was from all this shit. Organizing a wedding was harder than I thought. It took so much time and effort.. especially because we weren't normal people and couldn't get married that easily without worrying about anything. My respect for married couples grew and grew with every day.

I organized everything but the only things that I was struggling with were the rings. Josh and I looked for the perfect rings but none of them were good enough for her. One week was left and my head was exploding.

Besides that, I made sure that nobody and nothing was going to interrupt our wedding because who knew what freaks were waiting to ruin our perfect day?

Y/n

I was trying to melt in one of the seats in another store that sold prom and wedding dresses while Charlie was already looking for some dresses that I could but I was so tired and sad that I couldn't even more or help her. I was so close to drop it and get married in sweatpants.. my head was aching and I wanted this to be over as fast as possible.

The thought of getting married started scaring me more and more with every day. On one hand I wanted it so bad.. he was my future and I was dying to say 'I do'... but on the other one I was just scared. This was a huge decision and he was a huge and important person. Was it going to be as easy as it seemed? I prayed it would be.

I mean how would our life would be during a marriage? Was it going to make us feel old and were we going to get bored? What if he wasn't going to love me that much because I was already his? Were things going to change and what kind of responsibilities were waiting for me? So many things went through my head.. I mean I was going to share a lifetime with him.

"How about this one?" Charlie asked me and got me out of my thoughts. She was holding a tight long dress that looked very simple. I sighed. I knew I had to try a hundred more on and I couldn't run away from it so I said "Yeah.. that one is great.."

Ethan

I was sitting in a seat in a jewelry store... my thoughts were killing me and I was about to fall asleep. I had no energy left and I missed my girl. We didn't have a lot time for each other in the past months because of all this stress and I needed her instead of thee thoughts that were chasing me..

What if she was going to want to get rid of me after a few months because she didn't like being stuck with me so much? What if our life was going to be boring after putting the rings on.. what if she was going to want someone else because she' was so young? What if all the lust and all the excitement was going to disappear? What if she was going to say no?
Holy piss I was going to go crazy.

"Uhahuhs!" Josh turned around because I made a weird noise and flinched because of these thoughts.. "U good bro?" he asked with furrowed eyebrows. He seemed a little worried. He noticed how I was feeling.
I shook my head.

I loved her with all my heart. With all my blood and my veins... nothing was going to stop me or ruin this. Nothing was going to change anything. Everything was going to get better..

I stood up and he kept watching me with a raised brow..

I saw that ring between the other ones.. it was shining.. the huge diamond on it was not too big to make it look odd.. it was silver and so simple.. yet so beautiful that I knew it was going to look amazing on her hand.. I smiled with the thought if her..

"You know her ring size?" Josh asked knowing very well what I was thinking.

Y/n

I put a dress on.. and another one.. and another one.. I wasn't even saying no to each f them because I didn't like them. I just wanted to get out and free my mind. I wanted to see Ethan and feel his arms around me.

"Charlie I can't breathe!" I said in pain. She sighed. "It's too tight!" I added trying to not die. She helped me to get out of it just to get me into another one.. she let me walk out and I realized how tired and strained I actually was.. I felt really uncomfortable..

I just sat down on the ground and started crying..

Charlie

When I came back with a few more dresses I saw how she was crying on the ground.. my heart broke into a million pieces and I felt os bad for her. I knew how much she wanted but I also knew how stressing this all was. It was that kind of stress she wasn't used to and all she wanted was to live with him in peace.

She had to rush everywhere for all the details, she was going to get married without her mom by her side -what was really really hard and painful-, she needed to be there for Ethan and stay positive all the time and that was very difficult.. I wished I could help her...

I had to call Ethan.. he was the only one who could make her feel better...

I took a few steps back so she couldn't hear me. When he picked up I told him that he needed to come as fast as he could..

Ethan 

Charlie sounded genuinely worried and that made my heart stop. The thought of something happening to her made me cray.. it made me go insane.. she didn't even need to tell me what happened. I told Josh to stay and wait for me and got in my car to be there faster.

I entered the store as fast as I could totally out of breath, I exited the worst and when I saw that she was crying on the ground in a wedding dress something inside of me broke.. this all was too much for her.. for both os us.. we were both totally overwhelmed..

I walked over to her and sat down in front of her. When she looked up at me she looked totally confused like she didn't expect me to be there but I also noticed how relieved she seemed.. her red eyes were shining and her plump lips were so juicy that I wanted to kiss them.

I cupped her face and came closer.. "I know that you're nervous.. I know what you're worrying about and I know how tiring this is.. but everything will be amazing, I promise you. Don't worry about a damn dress." I said and kissed her forehead.

Y/n

How does it come that he knew exactly what I felt and what I was worrying about every fucking time? He knew me so well.. he was like an angel who appeared just when I needed him the most.. he was all I needed. I felt huge relief because he was there.. he made this all less stressful.

"We'll love each other the same.. even more. Our life is going to be just as exiting as it is right now... we'll be like this forever.." he said looking straight into my eyes. I could feel my heartbeat all over my body and I was so thankful for him in that moment.

I nodded and smiled.. that was all I needed.. literally all I needed.. it was enough to comfort me..

"Could you please stay and help me with finding one?" I asked him with my raw voice and he stroke my head. He nodded with a smile and leaned his forehead agains mine. That was all. Even a touch of him was enough to fix everything and make me feel better.. and he was right with everything that he said.. we weren't going to change..

I got myself back together and wiped my tears away. He helped me to stand up and we started choosing together. I tried a few other ones on and this time I had a little bit more energy. He shook his head at each pieces.. until he saw me in a white one that had a huge fluffy skirt and small butterflies on its chest..

His jaw dropped and I could see the heart in his eyes.. I was never going to forget the way he looked at me.. he didn't even need to nod or say anything. I need that it was it...