Can't hate you || e.d

Guilt

Two days later

Sun

We had several meetings about what happened, what I found, what I did, how far we came and what we were going to do before dad was going to hit us like a truck.

What I did was very helpful. Mika and I were texting most of the time and I was doing my best to gain his trust. Moon seemed like he wasn't really there mentally. He seemed a little stressed and carried away. I didn't get to ask him why yet.

Even Dean gave me ideas for what I could text Mika and how I could get him, seduce him, make him soft and all that shit. Sometimes we were just laying there and laughing about him.

I was wondering why he was helping me and why he had so much fun so I asked him and he answered, smirking totally proud "I like how he thinks you're his but I'm the one who's giving you dick."

I knew he was a psycho and loved how crazy he was because it made things less boring and stressful.

Mika asked me about Chloe. If I wouldn't mind if she would be mad at me for being with her crush because she was my best friend and I told him that we didn't need to tell anybody about it yet. He agreed -luckily- and said he'd want to keep us as a secret because he wanted me all to himself. Of course people would wonder why I'm dating two guys at the same time so I needed to keep this as a secret as long as I could.

Moon

I was thinking about Luna all the time. During these two days I realized that my love for her was as deep and huge as the universe was. Trying to not love her that much that it could kill me if it would be over just made it worse but I couldn't control it.

We were texting all the time and no matter what her parents said, she just wanted to see me. She did everything to talk to me but they got very protective so things got difficult for us but she managed to find a way and call me.

I was missing her more now that I couldn't see her whenever I wanted and knowing that she was feeling awful made me feel awful too. I was worried about her.

I told her to not be mad at her dad or Avery to not make things worse or feel awful but she was really mad at them. It bothered me and I couldn't concentrate on the mission, although I knew I should.. I couldn't concentrate on anything and I didn't want to be this fucked again.

We needed to clear these things soon because I wanted to see her. I wanted to see her without any problems. I wanted her parents to like me. It couldn't be that difficult.

Finally I got to understand how Dean felt back then.

Ethan

I was going to freak out, I was going to lose my mind because it kept snowing and snowing, like bro, god, couldn't you just wait a little bit more or is this a hurdle and you're helping Sun so I won't arrive in time?

I was trying to not stress but the thought of her with my gang and all the weapons and blood made me crazy. I didn't even know what it was about. What if it was worse than I thought?

I was standing on the balcony in the cold, looking at the snow. It was mocking me. Usually I loved snow because I proposed to Melissa in the snow but this time it was making things difficult for me.

When I felt her hands on my shoulders I felt some kind of comfort.. "Please come inside.. you're so angry, you don't even feel how cold it is. You'll get sick." she said with a soft voice and kissed my shoulder. I turned around to her. "I'm not angry. I'm worried."

Y/n

He was always worrying about her more than I was. He even loved her more than I did it. That was obvious. That didn't mean that I loved her less. His love was just stronger.