Can't hate you || e.d

Sorry Charlie

Y/n

On the next day I felt different.. like I would be a part of them and finally being somewhere... Even if it felt a little weird but it was also amazing.

And of course I would help them. No matter if she was my mother or not. That was the first time in my life that I could do something crazy without her being able to punish me or look at me like she was hating me. Sure I was asking myself if I could trust them because they could use me and blame everything on me if thing would go wrong but I knew they wouldn't be that stupid because it was about money.. and I didn't even want the money. I just wanted revenge. I just wanted to drown her in disappointment.

Ethan said he wanted to talk. It was obvious that he was going to use me and only be nice to me because I was the only one who could make this all easy for them.. somehow that was hurting because I felt like I'd never get the chance to really know him..

We didn't have much Time to talk yesterday because the meeting took us literally more than five hours since we needed to plan and start over again and after that we ate and were too tired to talk so we didn't do anything at all.

So this time we sat down on the comfortable garden furniture. It was a very beautiful and peaceful place. I could understand why the girls were relaxing here all the time. Even tho it was getting colder because we were moving towards the middle of autumn but it was still bearable..
I sat down and he was laying. Leaning his hand against a pillow and staring at me without any emotion in his face... when he said nothing I broke the silence.

"I hope I did nothing wrong..."

"I really wouldn't want to embarrass you, I tried my be-" he sat up. He seemed a little tired and upset. I felt like something was wrong and that was making me nervous.

"You're a miracle. You were perfect. They like you."
I nodded totally relieved.. "That's good.." I pulled my knees to myself and leaned my chin on them.

"You said something about your boyfriend."

I closed my eyes when he said that out of nowhere because I could feel the pain that was stinging... Where was this coming from and why did he want to talk about it now? "I really don't... I don't want to talk about it." I said a little irritated.

He sighed. "But I want to." he seemed very serious and mad about it. I didn't know.. for a second I thought he'd actually care because sometimes it seemed like he would.
I took a deep breath.. "What to you want to hear huh?" I asked looking at him. "Do you want to hear that he cheated on me with one of my friends because I..." I just couldn't continue the sentence.. He raised a brow.

"Because you what?" he asked me and I ran my hand trough my hair. "Forget it.."

It would be too uncomfortable for me to talk about that with him... especially because he was older than me... I thought he wouldn't care at all. and my teen problems would seem ridiculous to him.

"Y/n don't piss me off and just fucking say it."

I looked down and said "You wouldn't even care..."

He seemed even more pissed now and I could understand him because I was pissed at myself too Why did I even want him to care? He had more important things to do than to listen to my tiny stupid problems. Did I really think he'd like me pithing three days? Did I really think he'd be stupid like me? Of course he's already built his walls...

"Of course I don't. I'm just curious about how he could drop something like you and especially for what, like the fuck?!" he said and my jaw dropped. That asshole. I mean usually I was appreciating when people were honest with me but he was way too honest and rude sometimes like this was something serious and I actually felt vulnerable and hurt.. I said nothing.