Can't hate you || e.d

"you"

Sun

I woke up in his arms again. It was a ten minute nap but it felt great I loved waking up in his arms. It comforted me a lot. No matter what was going on, sleeping in his arms made everything better.

I looked up at him. He was stroking my head and he seemed really soft.. I liked that. I was glad that he was calm and seemed fine...

"Are you okay?" I asked. He kissed my head and nodded. "I am." he answered and I smiled.

I never thought that I was about to thank him for kidnapping me. I never thought that I wouldn't need anybody else than him. I never thought I wouldn't need all these material thing.. or my friends, school and all that other stuff.. all I needed was him. I liked being alone with him, without caring about anything else.

I yawned and stood up. I still had a few ideas about things we could do so I didn't want to waste any time. "I'm going to take a shower now and then I want you to take me somewhere." I said a little bratty. I smiled and he smirked back.

"Can't we just stay here and spend some time together?« he asked licking his lips and looking down at me. I knew what he wanted and what was going through his head and his body. "No daddy." I said. He stood up as well and approached me.. he pulled my shirt off before I could do anything. "Then you're definitely not going to take this shower without me.." he said. His husky voice and his hands on my waist made me shiver.. we started to make out and walked to the huge bathroom together..

We got in and he turned the hot water on, not minding that he still had his clothes on.. taking out clothes off was something we were going to handle quickly. I wasn't embarrassed anymore when I was naked in front of him. I loved how he was admiring my body.. he didn't make me feel like I had to be embarrassed..

His smirk was so goddamn dangerous..

We got undressed without interrupting our kisses. He grabbed my hair.. everything went so fast but I was already used to it. I loved how rough he was... The way he grabbed my neck with his other hand and kissed me at the same time, left me breathless.. so wet and so hot. My blood was bumping way too fast..

He backed off and looked at me. We both were out of breath. I looked at his wife chest that was going up and down really fast.. it made me crazy.. then I looked into his eyes..

»Get on your knees Babygirl..«

Y/n

"I HAVE ENOUGH!" I screamed at him. I didn't sleep even a second since he took me away from my life. Sleeping there would be very stupid. I didn't want to imagine what he was planning to do to me while I was sleeping.. He was only waiting for it to see me weak.

He even brought me food but I couldn't even eat a bit. He was sitting in front of me with his arms crossed in front of his chest like always. That was making me crazy. How could he be so stubborn and ignorant?

Since we were in an empty warehouse, my voice was at least ten times louder than usual. "I WANT TO SEE MY DAUGHTER!" I screamed and he sighed. "You'll see her very soon. Soon you both will come with me forever.." he said. I covered my face with my hands because I was close to loose my mind. I wanted to get the thoughts out of my head..

"Maybe you'll meet her sooner than you think.."

Moon

I couldn't believe my ears.. Grayson was an old enemy.. a very bad enemy.. that's why he took my mom away from us. That's why he waited for so long. He was really mentally ill.. he had issues.. and he wanted to take us away from her. My blood was boiling and I wanted to freak out. That's why the sky darkened. We needed to find that bastard as soon as possible because otherwise the world was going to go dien. We already wasted too much time.

My head was aching so I took a deep breath and right after that Josh came towards us. My heart started racing even more when I saw that he was rushing.. maybe even panicking.

"Bro I think we found them..."

Sun

I combed day hair after our hot shower.. He put his sweater on and ran his hand through his still wet hair. I couldn't stop looking at him.. I couldn't get the images of earlier out of my head.. I couldn't believe how he made me feel. I got more horny with every second.. he was turning me into a very naughty girl and I couldn't change it.. I bit my finger..

"Babygirl, I'm going on to get some things. Especially food, do you need anything?" he walked towards me. I swallowed and wiped the dirty thoughts away. He approached me and kissed my neck. I chuckled and shook my head. "No.. be quick daddy.." I answered and I was sure that he heard how desperate I was. That's why he smirked.. and left. I was alone, so I changed my clothes and tried to find something to kill the time without going crazy..

Ethan

We've never been in such a hurry. They found their location. We weren't sure yet but it was a beginning.. and we needed to go after that.. He was in a warehouse at the south side.. and she had to be with him. It fucked me up so god damn much. I was finally going to kill that bastard.

I hated myself because I didn't do it back then.. because I didn't kill him back then.. but the moment I've been waiting for all the time finally came.. We grabbed our guns and did everything like we planned it. We took over the streets and tried to be as fast as we could..

Sun

I was so bored. Really bored. He wasn't gone for too long but it felt way too long. I was so used to him that even a minute without him felt like forever.. I walked around in the room and sighed. Being lonely was really bad.. I asked myself his I lived without him. What I've done before I met him.. I wanted to read but I had no books.. I thought about texting him but that wasn't necessary. So I decided to draw something. I wasn't talented but I wanted to try to draw the view from that big window that I liked that much.

I found a pen easily but asked myself where I could get the paper from. I looked around everywhere and even thought about asking the receptionist. I checked the bag that we didn't touch yet, next to the closet. I hoped that Dean had something I could write on. I didn't want to go through his personal stuff like that but I knew that we already crossed that line..

I touched something cold.. clean.. plain.. I tried to feel the shape of it.. and when I started to assume what it was, I felt how heavy my stomach dropped.. my heart started racing and I started to empty the bag until I could see the black weapons.. I froze. I didn't want to believe my eyes.. I expected everything. I even expected to see the iron rod that his dad hurt him with.. but not this.. not any guns.. why did he have these? Why did he take them here? Did he want to kill me? Or someone else? Who did he want to hurt? Did he want to protect us of the thing that he couldn't tell me about?

I stood up and backed off immediately as if they were going to explode.. I started shaking. I rubbed my eyes, hoping that was hallucinating, sleeping or that I landed in another universe. They were the kind of weapons that Moon and dad were using.. what was he doing with them? I couldn't breathe.. but I needed to stay calm. I didn't want to jump into conclusions. Everything was going to be okay. He just had them to protect us.. he was not playing any games.

I started checking the drawers.. I was paranoid. I wanted to find something, yet I didn't even know what. I only thought that u would find anything else that would speak against it.. that would give me another hint. I also checked the nightstands. My side was empty but there was something on Dean's side.. I found a book.. I picked it up. It was black. Even the pages were black.

"you"

was written on it and very small beneath it:

"and me".

It was a journal.

It was all handwritten.. if I wouldn't have seen what I've seen, I would've been really happy about what I found.. and I wouldn't have been thinking about reading it. I didn't even know that he was writing. I didn't know a lot about him and actually.. looking into his personal wasn't something that I liked to do and it was against his privacy but these conditions were different.

I wanted to know if this had anything to do with me..