Can't hate you || e.d

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery

Sun

"How do you know if it's Moon's rain or normal rain?" Dean asked me while we were cuddling under a blanket. He wrapped his arm around my waist and I buried my face on his chest.

"I can feel it." I answered sadder than I wanted to sound like. "It's like I have this heavy feeling in my chest. It comes out of nowhere like a huge shadow and the clouds get darker.. then it starts to rain for hours and it's so strong.." I continued and his grip tightened.

"That's deep.." he said and I nodded softly.

I thought about calling him. I wanted to ask him if he was okay and where he was. I really hoped that he was okay because he's already went through a lot and I didn't want something stupid to happen again.

I didn't call him. I waited until the rain was gone

Moon

She dried her hair and I gave her some dry and warm clothes so she wouldn't be cold. We were in my room. She was wearing one of my softest sweaters and I didn't really know to give her as a bottom piece so I got her some sweatpants from Sun. She looked a little funny but sweet.

I was leaning on my desk when she put her hands between her thighs. "Are you still cold?" I asked. It was so quiet in this room..

She needed to get warm soon because the possibility that she could get sick was very high since it was my rain. Of course she didn't know that yet.

She nodded. "A little bit, yeah.." her voice was already raw so I went to my closet and got her a thick blanket from the upper shelf.

I went back and gently wrapped her into it. She looked up at me and I tried so hard to not look down at her.. I was already nervous enough.

When I backed off and leaned against my desk again I tried to swallow everything that happened. It was difficult and I didn't know what to do know but it seemed like she did..

"I'm really sorry.. for leaving like that today.." she started and I just looked at her.. "I was afraid." she said shortly and I furrowed my eyebrows. "Of What?" I asked. Both of our voices were quiet, as if we were afraid of making a noise or being to loud.

"Of you.. of love.." she answered, first looking at the ground and hesitating and then at me. I looked confused. "Why's that?" I asked and she took a deep breath. She was as nervous as me but I was better in hiding it.

"Because... nobody ever loved me.. and I never loved anybody.." the way she explained.. as if she was afraid that I would laugh at her or judge her.

I was surprised at what she said because she was such a pretty and cute girl who was one of a kind.. but at the same time I could understand it because someone like her couldn't be loved by everybody. Couldn't be used by everybody.. couldn't be handled by everybody.

"I never kissed anybody.. or did more.. and when you held my hand.. I felt something that I've never felt before.. that scared me. I didn't know what to do." she continued and she was so soft.. that she made me weak..

"I tried to run away from you because I was afraid of getting hurt.. I thought these feelings would go away if I would stay away from you. But they didn't."

The way she looked at me got me some type of way. It was so weird.. I never thought we would come to the point where we would talk about this. But I liked it.. I liked listening to her.. I liked hearing her voice and seeing her look at me like that.