Can't hate you || e.d

Girls

Sun

I walked in and slammed the door shut. He was sitting on the corner of my bed. I crossed my arms in front of my chest and tried to keep calm.. I tried to not punch him. He stood up and approached me. His wide shoulders and his furrowed eyebrows seemed even more dangerous this time.. but I wasn't going to be afraid of him.. not now.

"What is your problem?« I asked him with a shaking voice. It was shaking of anger. "Blake!" he answered with his deep voice. I rolled my eyes. "Don't roll your eyes at me. I fucking hate it." he said and I hated that his aggressive appearance turned me on in that moment but I couldn't get weak. Of course I was still a little scared of him because I didn't know when he was going to explode and when not.. but I tried to show it off.

"He's your brother. He didn't say anything bad about you. He even defended you. He had no bad intentions. You're always so mean and you love pushing people away from you." I said looking straight into his eyes. I hated that he was so much taller than me because it made everything that I said less serious. "I don't fucking care. Either you're going to tell me what he was doing here or I'll let him sing like a bird!".

I couldn't believe him. I could barely recognize him. Has he always been like this or did he change? Did he always hide his real face from me or did something happen that made him act like this? "I already told you. I invited him as a thank you for caring so much about you and me. He didn't even flirt with me once." I answered. He shook his head.

"I don't believe him!" he said and his voice was getting louder again. My jaw dropped. "Why?" I asked totally frustrated. "I know Blake too well. He would never look for me. He knows me!" his voice got louder and louder but I was going to give him a chance. "I saw how worried he was!" I said and he almost lost it. "STOP PROTECTING HIM! I SAW WHAT HE WAS PLANNING IN THE MOMENT I ENTERED AND LOOKED INTO HIS EYES! HE WASN'T CARRYING YOU JUST FOR FUN!" I kept looking at him eyes wide open. One side of me knew that he knew his brother way better than me and that he had a reason to say this all but the other side of me didn't want to believe it because he didn't seem like that.. "SO?"

His jaw dropped.. "SO?! SO IT WOULD HAVE BEEN OKAY FOR YOU TO HOOK UP WITH MY BROTHER?". That was too much. I couldn't believe my ears. I really wanted to slap him. What did he think I was? I almost laughed because I lost my mind. "I DIDN'T EVEN WASTE ONE THOUGHT OF THIS KIND ABOUT HIM! DO YOU THINK I WOULD DO THIS WITH YOUR BROTHER? DO YOU BELIEVE THAT I'M THIS KIND OF GIRL?" I screamed and pushed him away, feeling how the tears in my eyes were burning..

He ran his hand through his hair a little roughly and kept breathing heavily. "That's not what I wanted to say and you know that... I trust you but I don't trust him. " he said and seemed like he calmed down a little.. I hoped so because I couldn't take it anymore. It was too much for me.

But then he looked down at me. "What-.. what the fuck are you wearing?" he asked me looking very pissed. I looked down at myself. "You should dress like that only for me.." he said with a very deep and rough voice. I looked away because otherwise I was really going to punch him. "I'm not your object.." I said and tried to hold my tears back again as much as I could..

He started walking back and forth in the room..

"I don't want to see you and Blake together ever again." he wasn't even listening to me. Honestly I had enough of people telling me who I should meet or not. At least he wasn't screaming anymore because I really couldn't take it. I wanted it to be over. I wanted him to be soft and caring again.. instead of aggressive, mean, controlling and dangerous.

"You're getting all of this wrong.." I said with my raw voice that got a little more quiet with every second. He rubbed his chin and approached me again. "Sun.. baby.. I know Blake, and he knows me. He knows that I keep disappearing, he also knows exactly that I'm coming back again. He knows very well where I'm going. He's also not as kind as he seems to be. You have to believe me because I know him well and I don't feel well when you're around him.."