Calm Down Tiger

71: Love Really Changes You

White's POV

It's another Monday again and my morning was very hectic. First, I went to Cap's house ad fetch him but of course Ai'Gun tagged along and the three of us ate breakfast together. Technically, Ai'Mean and Ai'Plan arrived too and the five of us ate together before parting ways. In IC today, because the academic calendar will end soon, our professors gave us so many homework and paper to finish and as much as I want to complain, I am still lucky because I have P'Mark who can help me—we (Ai'Mean and I) forced him to help us.

During lunch time, I messaged Cap and said that I cannot eat lunch with him because I need to finish my other paper and P'Mark, Ai'Mean, and I were all in the library this lunch time. I missed the chance to be with Cap but why am I working so hard these days? It's not only about my ambition to have good grades and to go to good company but because I need to have a good future for Cap and I—that's how sure am I that I will be with Captain for the rest of my life.

"You are being cheesy na khrab!" Ai'Mean complained when I told him my reason because he isn't even exerting effort in our classes these days but because he is smart—he can make it without sweating—while me—I am also smart but I also need to put extra effort. We are all here in Korean Embassy filling up form to apply for Korean visa anyway, "I am being futuristic na khrab Ai'Mean," I answered him while still filling up my form.

Right now, we have Cap, Me, Ai'Mean, Ai'Plan, Ai'Gun, P'Mark, Ai'Toptap, Ai'Title, Ai'Cooheart, Ai'Ohm, Ai'Fluke, and Ai'Kris. Actually, Ai'Kris will follow after a week with Nong Rina and P'Best, while Ai'Toptap will follow after two weeks because he booked a vacation ahead of time and he cannot cancel it already so Cap was very sad when Ai' told us about the conflict. Anyway, most of them are done filling up their forms so they are all submitting them while Ai'Mean and I aren't done yet because you know Ai'Mean needed to help Ai'Plan with everything while I helped Cap a little but you know Ai'Gun asked help too because P'Mark arrived a bit late so no one will help him.

I sign at the bottom part and stand up, "Love really changes you, Ai'Friend," Ai'Mean said and follow after me. I can't help but laugh by his vogue comment, "Coming from you Ai'Mean? I never imagined na khrab you—being so loyal na khrab and being so in love with Ai'Plan," we walk together and we saw the long line our friends have made just to submit their forms, "Plan is—the greatest decision I've made in my life Ai'White," do you know what I like about mean? He isn't afraid to voice out his love for Plan. I envy him because I want to be like him—the kind of love you can be proud of.

"Same Ai'—same—I thought—" my eyes voluntarily find Captain, "Captain will always be a dream for me na khrab. Like you know—a good dream that you don't want to wake up from—but life will really give you a lot of surprises na khrab. Cap became reality and everyday—I am living in my dream," have you ever had a desire—like one desire you have and once you have you still cannot believe it's true?

It's weird, "You have everything na khrab Ai'White and actually you can have him easier before na khrab if you—" "No influence na khrab can make a person love you na Ai'Mean," I cut him off because I know what he was trying to say. The idea of love for me is very old fashioned, "Don't get me wrong Ai'White—you know how hard I've worked for Plan and I did a mistake na khrab once and I wasn't planning to do it again na khrab—but in your case—I actually doubt that you will make a move na khrab before. You watched him for two fucking years na khrab and I didn't even tell you na khrab that I knew about your feelings for him or something—but I did help you na khrab to make a move because I got tired watching you longingly look for him every time," I know that's why I am thankful, "So I thought—maybe if you tried to you know—get involve na khrab with your parents then maybe Ai'Cap will know about your existence na khrab and maybe—you know," Ai'Mean is really surprising sometimes. His way of showing people his kindness and our friendship is like this.