Calm Down Tiger

93: I am in Pain!

Gun's POV

I am so sad—because I don't know if I am wrong for not knowing and understanding what's happening to me. I am having a sleep over at Ai'Plan's room and we both decided to kicked out Ai'Mean because there is no way I am going to tell Ai'Plan what has been bothering me with Ai'Mean around. I do trust Ai'Mean but I know he is also close to P'Mark. I just don't want him to know.

I lean my back on the headboard while Plan also did the same. We are always talking loudly and spontaneously but today seems different, "You know Ai'—" Ai'Plan started, "I've never seen and heard P'Mark na khrab so mad at you," he said finally and all I can do is sigh, "Yes—it makes me sad really Ai'Plan—P' is like—really good to me and always give what I want na khrab—but today~" I cannot even finish my sentence because this is making me feel sadder.

"When I heard P'Mark shouting at you after he shouted at Ai'Cooheart and Ai'Fluke—I was so scared na khrab. Lately, Mean keeps on telling me to stop myself from hanging out with you na khrab a lot because P'Mark will be mad soon but I don't understand why because before I became Mean's boyfriend and before you started hanging out na khrab with P'Mark—we always hang out," I look at Ai'Plan and he looks as sad as I am, "Do you think—P'Mark na khrab is mad at you because we keep on hanging out?" and his question makes me think too.

I shake my head, "I don't know Ai'Plan—but you are right—why would P'Mark na khrab will get mad at me just because we keep on hanging out? We've been hanging out since middle school na khrab." I hate it. I hate feeling confused for something that I don't understand. I am a simple person, tell me all directly because I won't understand it not unless someone will explain it to me, "Ai'Plan~" I called him and he hummed in return, "Do you—also think na khrab—that I am clueless and insensitive na khrab?" because I think I am.

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Flashback

P'Mark told me to wait in the living room after marching on the second floor where Ai'Cooheart, Ai'Title, Ai'Fluke, and Ai'Ohm are in. Ai'Plan sits beside me while Ai'Mean keeps on looking around which I don't understand why. Nong Heemi is also pouting beside me because she was mad when we get here, "Ai'Gun," I look at Ai'Mean when he called my name. His eyes are getting smaller and smaller.

"Khrab?" I asked him but his facial expression didn't change, "Did you—make P'Mark—" "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING!!!" then I almost jumps off my seat—no—not only me but also Ai'Plan, Nong Heemi, and even Ai'Mean got startled because of the loud shout. I gulp, "P'Mark?" I asked but I don't know if it's really P'. That voice sounds so angry.

I am fidgeting in my seat, "WHY SENT IT?? WHY FUCKING~" and then there are many noises upstairs and we are all so nervous, "What did you do Ai'?" Ai'Mean asked me this time but all I can do it shake my head, "I don't know," I said honestly but the angry voices and more shouting upstairs continues, "Calm down P'Mark!" that's probably the loudest voice of Ai'Title that I've heard so far.

Ai'Plan grabs my arm, "Did you make him mad na khrab Ai'Gun? Or did you do something na khrab to make him mad? He is scary Ai' you need to—" "Don't—" and Nong Heemi shakes her head, "I don't think na kah it will be helpful if Gun Gege run upstairs and stop P'Mark na kah—that will be suicide!" my hands are shaking already because P'Mark got mad right after—, "Actually na khrab—" and I put my head low when they all look at me, "Ai'Cooheart na khrab accidentally sent me a video na khrab and I was watching it when P'Mark got mad na khrab because I was watching it—and then P' told me that we are going home and he will talk to Ai'Cooheart—and on the way home—he wasn't talking to me at all," I confessed.