Calm Down Tiger

98: I Know How I Feel

Donghae's POV

Today, I decided to go out with Gun because he feels lonely—based on his message. It's sort of like, 'P', everyone went out already na khrab and P'Mark and I aren't really talking so much. Is it okay na P' if you can go out with me? I already asked P'Hyuk and he told me to take good care of you but I am not sure na P' how but I will do my best!' so in the end I told him that we can go out today and I will try to bring him to some places that he might enjoy.

Gun and I decided to eat first at a local Korean restaurant at Namdaemun. "Do you like to order other food Gun?" I asked him while he is happily sipping the soup of samgyetang. The weather might be too cold for him so I decided to buy this hot food for him, "Humm—it's okay na P'—I am good~" he answered happily before trying out other food on the table. I smile happily, "It's good if Captain is also here—right?" I asked him again. I know we passed the stage of being awkward to each other but I've never tried hanging out alone with either Captain or Gun.

"Yes P', but woie! Ai'Cap is always busy with Ai'White na P'. I heard that Ai'White will go back home this Saturday because he needs to fix something na P' but why is he fixing something? I don't remember that Ai' knows how to fix broken things na khrab. But I understand them because Ai'Cap loves Ai'White so much P'. Maybe I didn't notice it before na P' but the other night, when Ai'Cap helped me with P'Mark na woie because P' was drunk na P', Ai'White kept on helping Ai'Cap—even helped me support P'Mark instead of Ai'Cap!" I want to laugh—I don't know if Gun is complaining about his brother's relationship or complimenting them.

I swallow my food before asking again, "How about Plan and Mean? Why didn't they go out with you today Gun? The three of you are always together," they are like Hyukkie and I plus Heechul hyung when Hangeng hyung is not around. Well—Hangeng hyung will still not be around for quite some time so Heechul hyung will probably be grumpy for few more months.

Gun sighs and put down his chopsticks, "Woie P'—I don't understand them both na khrab. Last night, Ai'Plan and Ai'Mean are both I my room and Ai'Cap was busy outside. They asked me about so many questions na khrab—mostly about P'Mark which I don't understand na P' because I am still upset na khrab about what happened to P'Mark and I and—oppss!" then he covers his mouth while looking at me, "P'~" I smile, "Go one first, continue your story first. I will not ask you yet," I assured him.

Gun looks worried but still continue, "Well—they keep on asking me na P' and I was so confused because Ai'Plan keeps on telling me that P'Mark doesn't deserve me na khrab and if P' will try to reconcile with me I should think it very well na P'. But P'—I am waiting for the time that P'Mark and I will talk." I love all the changes in Gun's facial expressions, he is the type of person who you thought you can read well but the words coming out of his mouth will still surprise you. I grab a piece of tteokbokki and savor the taste, "P'—do you remember na khrab when you heard me and P'Mark talking before?" I swallow fast before nodding my head, "Neh~" "Well—you told me before na P' that I was cruel na khrab for telling those words to P'Mark and I shouldn't be like that because I've hurt him—" I nod again remember that time I talked to him.

"I really think now P' that you are right. I did hurt P'Mark na khrab and what makes me feel worse now P'—I didn't know that I was hurting him like that na P'." This is totally unexpected from Gun. I put down my chopsticks too and folded my hands on the table while look at Gun, "What do you mean?" I asked him. I know, I shouldn't pry on Hyukkie's brother's issues again but I think there's a reason why Gun decided to go out with me and not with any other people, "P', will you promise me again—that—like last time na P'—you will not tell P'Hyuk na khrab?" I inhale sharply hearing the exact words that I told him before.